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'The soldier boy was sitting calmly underneath that tree. As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me. The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night. And scores of figures on the ground lay still by mornings light.'

-By Michael Mack

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The autumn breeze felt good against my cheeks. The leaves were once again changing which meant it's been a year since that time. I know I shouldn't do this, it feels so wrong, but the heat just keeps rising. It's not my fault. I said no. He never listens…

"You never… listen… to me."

It's so soft. His silky locks; I love running my fingers through them. I feel like I'm in heaven. I don't deserve to feel this way. I don't belong in heaven…

"Stop…" It was a faint but relentless plea.

Chaos would break loose if… if we were ever caught. He's not safe with me. I would never forgive myself if anything happened to him. It's my fault. It's always my fault. Those orbs are so empty. Who was I to think I could fill them. He feels nothing. What gave me the right to think I could change that?

It's so dark. I love it… being engulfed… embraced by the darkness. I love every bit of it. I want it all. But it's not enough. It's never enough. I can hear his grunts. Even as he fills me with his seeds I feel… empty.

Knock. Knock.

"Naruto- Sama, Uzumaki- Sama would like your presence in the dinning hall."

"Hinata. I can't let her see this."

But it was too late. It's always too late. He's gone. I looked at his spot on the bed. Nothing. Only a strand of raven hair left on his pillow.

Knock! Knock!

"Naruto- Sama? Is everything alright?"

I wobbled my way out of bed and limped to my door. Once I reached the thick oak doors I leaned my back against the cool wood. Was everything really alright like this?

"Everything is fine Hinata- San. Tell my father I'll be there soon." My voice sounded hoarse and timid. But I'm sure she heard me. Why am I trying to hide this from her? She's already known about it for a long time now. She was the first person to catch us.

FLASHBACK…

"Ah… no… yes, there… Harder!" I felt his smirk widen.

"You like that Naru- Chan?" His words vibrated around me, turning my mind into a puddle.

"Oh my gods… suck harder!"

I whimpered at the lost of heat. 'He did not just do that!" I growled in my throat and steadied myself on my elbows.

"Why the fuck did you stop!" I tried glaring at him but realized he was not looking at me. I followed his gaze and was met with deep snow clouded eyes. My heart stopped.

"Hinata! I… what… um…"

I turned to my partner. He was gone.

'Why does he always do that?'

Did she see? What should I say? Is she going to tell? No, she wouldn't do that. Not to me…

"Please don't tell." That's all I could say before I saw her rushing to my side and the darkness over came me. Were those tears?

"Naruto- Sama!" Her voice crackled and she bent down to hold me in her arms. So dark and empty. This is what I deserve.

END FLASHBACK…

Her footsteps softly padded away from the door and I slid to the ground. Another year. It's finally time.

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