Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or the songs that will appear in this fic.(A/N: I know the characters are OOC but please bear with me.)

Chapter1: I want to die.

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
(Unless I try to start again)
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

Chorus

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

Chorus

I just sat in my chambers, thinking. I felt overwhelmed at all the emotions that with these meomories, these thoughts. I was thinking about my mother, Inuyasha, and my father. 'Do I really want to fight him? Why do I then? Is it because of father?' I sat thinking again when a meomory came to me.

Thoughts/Meomory

Me and mother were playing in the garden when news my father had returned. I was so happy about father being home I didn't hear about the human wench with him. I also didn't see my mother's pale face and horrified expression. I ran to greet father. He had a girl with him and she was holding his hand. "Father. Who is she" Instead of giving me a direct answer he said"Sesshomaru. You're getting a brother." At the time I was overjoyed. Until, I noticed what it did to my mother. When I was offically seven years old, me and mother went to see the dojo. It was this day mother killed herself. In the weeks before her death. She had stopped eating, talking, or showing any emotion at all. She had calmly walked over to the training sword pile, picked one up, and stabbed herself. It was in those few moments, I relized it was because of the wench and my father. I also decided it was Inuyasha's fault even though he wasn't born. In these moments I decided that I would be like my mother in her last moments: proud, strong, and emotionless. I eventually forgived father, figurung he was just weak. I almost forgave Inuyasha. Until when I went to gather him to help father, he was pinned to a tree. The villagers said he killed their miko. They also say with her last moments she forever pinned him to a tree.My father died. It was time for me to become lord of the western lands. I gained the respect of all demons and was feared among lower ones. Later after my brother was released by some strange miko, I found that somenone pretended to be him. This had ended with him being pinned the tree. I considered forgiving him but for some reason I decided to train him. Every so often I'd attack him to keep trying to train. Something about the miko that released him though...

End of thought/meomory

I finally fell asleep pondering about the strange miko. I beleive her name was Kagome.

Kags and gang

"Hey guys. We should get some sleep" Kagome said. It was around ten at night. Her and Inuyasha would stay up on guard.(A/N: After this I'm going to switch to Kags pov. See ya!)

I was sitting under the tree Inuyasha was in when I sensed her. The claypot came agian. Inuyasha of course smelt her and ran off. 'Why do I always follow I just get hurt? Why do I care if he goes or not?' She decided she would just see if that's where he went. So, she walked over to Sango. "Sango I need you and Miroku to take watch for about 20 minutes. okay" She whispered while shaking her awake. "Sure, Kagome-chan." She replied sitting up."Its Inuyasha again." I nodded and left. I followed to where I sensed her. She got there just in time:

"Inuyasha? Kill my re-incarnation" Kikyo said in her dead, cold voice.

"I...I will." With that Inuyasha and Kikyo started to kiss passionatly and a little more. Until a twig broke under my weight. They both looked up. My legs were glued to where I was standing."I'm sorry Inuyasha but I will not be returning this time. No need to kill me. I finally understand, Goodbye." With that I ran blindly. That was the stituation until, I reached a cliff...

Sesshy-sama

'Maybe I should just kill myself.' I shook my head violently at the thought. My head shot up, I smelt tears. They were coming from near the cliff on my lands. I jumped up and shot out of the room as quick as I was able to do. It smelled like the miko. 'Omg, she must have finally snapped! Inuyasha you are truly a baka.' Sure enough it was her. She was on the edge, smiling like a maniac. She was really going to jump!

Sango and Miroku

"Sango, they've been gone a long while. Do you think he's with her agin"

"Most likely, Houshi-sama." Sango sighed at this.'That baka doesn't realize what he does to her each time. Inuyasha you are a stupid hanyu baka!'

"Calm down. He is a baka but we can't interfere."

"She's going ot snap and kill herself soon if we don't" Sango's voice was shaking she was so angery and upset."She sometimes mentions it while we're bathing. She says it would be so easy to just drown herself and get it over with."

This actually suprised Miroku into gasping with a look off pure horror on his face."But...but...Why would she end her life over that baka"He jumped up. Sango started to smirk. "Houshi-sama? You're not going to interfere are you" "No. I sense a familar demonic auora." "What lands are we in again...Oh shit" "What is it Sango-chan" "We're in Sesshomaru's lands."

Kags

I stood on the edge of the cliff. Finally! A way out of my pain. I inched closer to the edge. I stood on my toes and took a dive. For a few minutes, it felt like I was floating...I was floating. No, I was being carried! I looked up to see my captor. It was none other than Sesshomaru.

Sesshy

I watched as she stood on her toes and take a dive. For some reason I couldn't let her die. So I caught her while she was falling and headed to my castle in the west. She looked up to try and find out who her captor was. Strangely enough she didn't panic...she relaxed in my grip and fainted. Jaken was as always waiting for me. He was completely shocked at who I was carrying. I snapped him out of his daze soon enough. "Jaken, have one of the female servants go to the guest room next to my own." "Yes, mi'lord." With that he scrambled off to do his master's bidding. I reached the room at the same time as the servant. I walked in the room and carefully laid her on the bed. "Akira, take care of her." "Yes, my lord." She bowed respectfully and went to get a sleeping gown for the girl. I left the room.

Mouse: I hope you like my new story. I wrote this for my friend Kayla. Please reveiw. Flames are excepted but not appreciated. I hope you stick with me for the rest. Ja ne!