A/N – This is not one of my first Fan Fictions but this is my first Twilight Fan Fiction. So wish me like R&R.

You will get more out of me that way.

This is Rated M for Mature themes.

-Lemons

-Sexual References

-Violence

-Language

Those are the main ones. I know that all of this is just boring SHIT to all of you reading but I must put the following…

DISCLAIMER – Only own the plot.. and OC chars.

This Story takes place after and during Eclipse. Instead of Jacob running off he stays behind. Edward and Bella have not set a date yet.

Chapter One

I bolted up from my sleep due to another one of my nightmares recently they had been getting worse and worse over the past few months. I had hit my arm against something semi solid when I had bolted up from my sleep. Figuring it was Edward I kept my eyes closed and reached out for him. I hit a human form but it was not Edward the warm skin that I had touched wasn't human. That could only mean one person.

"JACOB!" My eyes shot open to see him sitting on my bedside I glared viciously at him.

"Good morning sleeping beauty," he replied to me in his happy singsong voice as usual.

The boy just wouldn't give up. He knew that I was engaged to Edward but yet he was still over here whenever Edward was not. Jacob was so persistent he was driving me crazy. I didn't know how much more of it I could take. I looked at Jacob for a minute before pulling the blankets off of my body it was way to warm especially with Jacob sitting here too.

Jacob stood from my bed and looked down at me for a moment before Charlie burst into the door laughing his happy little ass off. He yelled something back down the stairs to Billy. Both Jacob and myself looked to the door waiting for Charlie to tell us what he wanted, he looked at us and laughed.

"So you finally got up Bells, Jake, Billy would like to leave" Charlie looked from me to Jacob to tell him what needed to be said before continuing, "But you are always welcome to stay, Bells can take you home later if you'd like."

My fake smiled faded and a look of utter annoyance raged. I had been avoiding Jacob as much as possible. After what had happened last spring. I did not want to be around him, my feelings had lit and still not fading. I couldn't help but fight with myself about all of this. As much as I loved Edward my feelings for Jacob just would not cease. Everything my mind wandered to him I couldn't help myself. I wanted to be with Jacob I really honestly did want to be with Jacob. But Edward was always there for me and would let me DO anything I wanted.

"What do you want me to do Bells?" Jacob asked me what I wanted; I honestly had not idea what I wanted…

"I guess we can do whatever you want Jacob…" I told him not even thinking about what I was saying.

Jacob's eyes lit up with happiness before I could react my mind realized what I had just told Jacob. Thoughts wandered in my mind before I would figure out how to react Charlie looked at me, I don't think he knew what to tell me. Edward was 'hiking' and I was here alone and I chose to hang out with Jacob.

"I will leave you two kids alone," Charlie's voice suggested that he didn't care if we started making love right there in the middle of my bed! Sometimes that man just drove my up the wall. I mean yes he had given up on keeping Edward and I apart but be real, can't he realize that Jake is only my friend!

What have I gotten myself into I didn't know what Jacob had in mind but I knew that it couldn't be good especially with Edward knowing that Jacob was here he wouldn't rely on Alice's visions and I couldn't be tracked. Jake knew this too, oh what did that boy have going through his head. Quickly I looked at Jacob noticing a small bulge in his jeans. I rolled my eyes.

"Put it away Jacob!" I scowled across the room.

"Put what away Bells?" He sounded so innocent.

"PREVERT!"

"You know you want me"

"Like hell Jacob, you only wish I did"

"I thought that it was different… your feelings have changed haven't they Bells"

My face got red with embarrassment along with anger. I didn't know how to respond to that. I knew that I couldn't lie to Jacob without his knowledge. It was impossible for me to lie to anyone. I just wasn't good at it, a skill that I had never truly picked up in my time.

Jacob moved back over to where I was and sat down on the bed next to me. I had changed positions to sitting cross-legged on the middle of my bed. He returned to his position on the edge of the bed. I looked at him for a moment still at a loss for words.

"I'm right aren't I"

"Damn it Jacob will you just lay off." My voice was hot with anger.

"I'm sorry Bells, I'll just go with Billy and Charlie"

"Jake, stay…"

I didn't know how to really react, Jacob was my friend and pretty much my brother. He knew me as if he had known me his whole life. I couldn't keep things from him, it wasn't right at all. After everything that Jacob and I had been through, when Edward left Jacob was the one to hold my pieces together and almost put me back together again. When Edward pissed me off, Jake in his own cruel hateful way made me smile.

"Are you sure Bells?" his voice sounded like he meant that he honestly wasn't sure if he should stay with me or not. "The Bloo- Edward, might be back soon,"

Sighing I got off the bed moving to the window, I had to think about what I could say to him. I could be rude and tell him to get out of my house. Or I could face the truth, on the mountain that day.. the day Victoria came after me, I realized the truth, and something that Jake had known the whole time. I loved him, I loved Jacob Black. I had to hold myself from shedding tears for him, shedding tears for the boy I loved, when I was engaged to the man of my dreams and my world. "Jake-"

"Uh Bells, I gotta go," And within less than a second he was out of my room and to the bottom of the stairs. A three and a half seconds later I heard his rabbit starting up, and he was gone.

Jacob never just left me like that, never unless Edward was to be back soon. I waited a few moments for Edward to arrive but he didn't. I began to wonder what had happened was there something wrong in La Push. No he would have told me that, I thought to myself.