Hi,
I'm looking for a Bella and Alice story. The story starts after New Moon. When Edward leaves Bella starts hanging out with Jacob (in this story I'm pretty sure he's gay). Bella start drinking, going out to clubs, and cutting herself. Later on she decides to search for the Cullen's in Alaska after she realizes she's in love with Alice. When she makes it to Alaska she stops by a pub and looks thru a phone directory for the Cullen's after finding their number she calls Carlisle so that he can pick her up at the pub. I think the rating of the story is M and that's about all I can remember. Thank you for your help.