That time. That place. Where and when it all began. You told me you weren't afraid of the dark. You put on a brave face to run away. You silently asked me to come with you. To run like the fork and the spoon in that ridiculous riddle of lies. I wanted to take your hand that night, but there was one major problem.
I won't say that I regret everything that happened afterwards. All the friends we made. All the adventures we went on. It makes me sad that we couldn't go together like we had hoped. I still have nightmares of all our fights, real or not. All of that could have been so different.
We could have gone on the raft. You, me and Kairi. Just like we planned. Nothing would have been the same. What do you think Riku? Would that have been better or worse? We wouldn't have gone nearly so far, nor would we have grown so far apart. We like to make-believe that everything's the same and that nothing has changed but that's a lie to keep us together. Maybe it could have been that way, had I taken your hand.
The problem? The reason why everything was so different from what we wanted? The reason that I never took your hand? These are all good questions all with the same answer. Well I have some questions of my own. Do you think you can answer?
Why do you think I chose the path to light? Why do you think I had a hard time finding you and Kairi both hidden in realms of darkness? I should think the answer would be obvious.
You've always been brave, alone or with me. You don't fear much, except abandonment as I learned along the way. I'm not the same. I can be brave and put on a face just like you, but we have different fears and worries. Unlike you I put belief in the fact that if someone I love leaves that they'll come back eventually. I guess I've been avoiding the answer.
I'm sorry that something so minor caused you and everyone else so much pain. You might not be afraid of the dark,
but I'm terrified of it.