Just one more time. One more dying at my hand. One more and she'll be back. She'll dance and sing by my side. People scream that I have lost my mind but they're wrong. I've find it with every piece of red, every final breath. All these choirs in my head singing her name and I smile and laugh as the veil thins and she gets closer. I feel her hand on my shoulder and the warmth of her smile and I have my mind as everyone dies, with their final breath, the breath of life bleeds through, bringing her back to me.
They scream. What a waste of that beautiful breath, the final sigh of life. She screamed when she died. It's only fair, all these people - it's a higher cause. She'll come back. Then I won't have this hollow heart, this vast endless plain of my soul where the devil dances. My heart will be light and free with her smiling like the sun beside me.
Light dances and the room's too quiet. Nearly here. Nearly dancing in the light. But not. There's no more screams. Glittering red everywhere. One more dying at my hand, one final breath of life and she'll be back by my side. Red and Black and the choir screaming higher in my head and she'll be back. Another twist of divine rush and another final breath. She'll come back to me. A spark of heavenly light and the breath of life and shining red. She'll be by my side again.
No, I'm not losing my mind but with another chorus so sublime, another dart of heavenly light, she will be beside me again.
Well, yeah. Blame Florence and the Machine for being so amazing. Breath of Life is just heaven in soundwaves. And very madwithgrief!Mergana. I originally was trying for Morgause and Morgana but Merlin jumped in and reminded me of how he is so very good at being mad with grief. So. Another insane Merlin. Appears to be the only thing I can write. I need to stop talking. Before this actually becomes longer than the pitiful drabble.
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