Nina´s POV:
So, it´s been a while since I saw him, I know things are not supposed to be awkward between us but I can´t help it, I´m still in love with him or I think so, I DON´T KNOW! He has move on and I tried to but what the hell was I thinking when I chose to move on with my best friends brother! I always talked to Julianne about how I felt about Ian but then when we broke up I got really attached to her and then she set me up with her brother and well now is the time when I realize that it definitely wasn´t a good idea but how can I broke up with him? What if Julianne never talked to me again? I already lose so much this year, my love, some of my fans and actually I think some of my friends are with the "Taking Sides" thing and guess what side they´re chose? Not mine, as always I am the bitch.
"NINA DOBREV ARE YOU HEARING ME?!" Derek yelled at her while she was lost in her own thoughts
"Sorry I was just thinking about—"
"About him right?" Derek asked me with a really bad mood, sometimes he get really jealous and it freak me out.
"No Derek, I wasn´t thinking about Ian" Even though I was lying, I do was thinking about that lovely, gentle, smoldering, perfect blue eyes, why do I still feel like this it´s been months since we broke up
"So what were you thinking about?" I really wanted to yell at him that I was thinking about how to break up with him because there are some times, God, who am I kidding A LOT of times when he just think that he can control my life! Dude I´m 24 years old let me L-I-V-E
"About visiting my mom for the weekend, I have to go back to Atlanta in like week and a half and I want to see her the last days of my vacations…" I know I´m a horrible liar but actually I do want to visit my mom but I clearly have to clarify something to Derek "I am going to visit her ALONE."
"Why can´t I go with you? I´m your boyfriend! Don´t you want our families to know that we´re in love?"
"I just want to go alone. Please?" I was trying to be nice but if he said something stupid I swear God I´ll kill him
"Fine" Oh My God! He agreed with me?! "But next time I´ll go with you ok?"
"We´ll see" We´ll see if I´m still dating you at that time
"Well I got to go. Bye N" Not even a second later he was gone and I went to the hotel room to buy a ticket to Toronto and call my mom to gave her the news
-Phone Call-
"Nina, baby, it´s not that I´m not thrilled with you coming, but is this about Derek or maybe Ian?" My mom know me well, I just couldn´t lie to her about this mess
"I need you mommy, I like Derek I do but I´m not in love with him and I never will or at least probably in the future but he´s also extremely jealous and dramatic and I can´t deal with him" At this point I was clearly crying, I finally talk to someone about this, I really needed someone to hear me and not judge me just hear me and then help me, that was what I always got with Ian
"Daughter, if you can´t deal with Derek why are you with him? Nina you have to let go the people that don´t make you happy, I don´t want to hear or see my little girl sad"
"And I don´t want to be sad but I´m tired of this. Mom I let go the person I love the most and I probably will never got him back, that hurts me, it's a pain that is killing me" I need to forget him but how can I do it? I love Ian more that I´ve ever loved someone and it´s really hard for me to forget him.
"Baby if you and Ian are meant to be, life will drag you back with each other, and also if you´re still in love with him which is obvious fight for him but break up with Derek, he doesn´t deserve to be just the substitute of your real love and if Julianne is your real friend she´ll understand don´t worry."
I really needed to talk to my mom, she always make me feel better but the thing is I don´t want to break up with Derek, he has been so nice to me with all his stupid arguments and his lame stories he is a good person and I feel I should give him a chance and if it doesn´t work well, it´s done "I´ll figure things out mom, I promise"
I talk to my mom some more minutes about my visit, I´ll be there just for a week, TVD Season 5 Reunion is in almost two weeks and I need to get over Ian the sooner possible otherwise it would be a problem to perform Damon and Elena now that they are dating. My flight will be in 5 hours, thank God I found a flight sooner, I went to say goodbye to Julianne and Riawna I explain them that I needed my mom but I notice something really weird with Jules I asked for Derek and she said he was sleeping but he wasn´t he told me earlier he was going to hang out with some friends well maybe I´m just being paranoiac, even more than usual, he is probably with some guys drinking. I went back to my room to finish my bags and I realize I´ll just get 3 hours of sleep, great Nina just great. Tomorrow I´ll talk a bit more to my mom, I need her advice, at least I don´t really think this mess could get worst.
To Be Continued…