Almost Is Never Enough

He was my best friend. I fell in love with him and that was a big mistake. We don't talk anymore. I guess you can blame me. I wanted to try to be in a relationship. He blamed his life. He blamed his career. He blamed every fan that didn't want us together but I didn't care what they said. I loved him. I know he can't- we can't deny how we feel about each other. But, in time our feelings will show. One of us will make that move, again. Sooner or later I'll wonder why he gave up because everyone knows the truth. Carlos, Alexa, Logan, and Kendall- they all know! He never told me how he felt about me. I never knew he wanted me the way I wanted him. We could've been magical, unbelievable but we weren't. But, he's a big superstar and I'm… me. I think about him sometimes. I think about those times when we used to go camping and he would wrap his arms around me to keep me warm in the friendliest of gestures. I remember.

I loved her. I wanted to be with her. We really didn't get a fair chance. I never asked her to be with me. People saw pictures of us together and just assumed. I guess I did too. I can deny how I felt about her but someday it'll come out. It would've been intense and full of passion… and a mistake because she was my best friend. Normal people don't fall in love with their best friend. But what is normal? She aligned the stars. We would be cuddled together by a fire when we went camping. It was perfect. It was right. I don't know when things went wrong. I guess it was my fans. She would cry because of the mean things they would say to her. They would say she was ugly, I would tell her she's beautiful. They said she was fat, I would tell her she was perfect. She said one day that she couldn't do it anymore. I tried to talk to her and ask what she meant. I didn't tell her how I loved her and now here she is. Lying in I.C.U. because I couldn't tell her I loved her. This is all my fault. If I would've just told her she wouldn't have ran her car off the bridge. But, I didn't and now I'm sitting here. Crying, begging her to wake up. So I can kiss her and hear her beautiful laugh. So I can tell her I love her.

"Shay, I love you so much…"

Her eyes slowly opened. She smiled at me.

"Jay- I love you too… I always have… I always will…"

She closed her eyes. No. NO! Her heart monitor flat lined…

A/N: Hey guys so this is just something that I wrote in my creative writing class that I thought I would share with you beautiful lovely people of the Fanfiction world. It is sad to me. But that's me and it was something that was supposed to teach us how to repeat ourselves numerous times but to do it fluently before you guys say 'oh well all she's doing is repeating herself'. I did get a good grade on this. I got a hundred. But here's a little something for you guys for now. I am working on another chapter for all of my stories but this was just a little one shot type thing. If you want a one shot you can PM me your name, which BTR guy, and a plot/theme type thing and I'll get it out ASAP. Anyways thanks for reading and reviews are always appreciated.

Peace, Love, BTR,

Shay ;)