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Dear Nat,

When you read this letter-mainly this sentence,you will know that I am dead.

I know what you're thinking. Oh wow, Clint Barton just wrote a letter in preparation? That does not sound like him at all.

I know it doesn't sound like something your Clint would do, but it is.

And I'm betting right about now you want to slap me.

All jokes aside, I wrote this letter for you because I was afraid.

Afraid of losing you to someone else. Afraid of losing you in a battle with death. I was afraid of losing you in general, Natasha, and I knew that if I did lose you, I could never forgive myself. I wrote this letter because I knew that you would read it, and because I needed to tell you something.

When I first met you, I didn't know what to think.

Mainly because my mind was occupied with thoughts of Damn, she's hot!
Fine, I'm cutting to the chase, you should have known better than to take a letter-even if it's a death note-seriously if it's written by Clint Barton.

Do you remember when you first joined SHIELD and you weren't supposed to join me on that mission because Fury hadn't finished his paperwork or whatnot?

"What are you going to do now?" You asked me.

"Oh you know, do my mission, hurt people." I replied, and then you asked me,

"By yourself?"

And then I asked you. "Aren't you coming?"

That was our first mission together. I'll never forget the way you moved when you fought, that smile on your face as you took down more and more of the opponents. It was as if you were born to fight.

I also want to apologize. I lied to you, Nat. I lied about this mission. I broke my promise. I promised I'd be back to see your face, your hair, the flame in your porcelain cheeks.

I'm pretty sure that when future Clint was sitting in a ditch or where ever, bleeding to death, he was thinking about coming back to you, caressing your face and kissing your beautiful red lips.

I knew I was going to die on that mission, so I'm writing this letter, and I'm going to give it to Maria so that when I die, I know it will land in your hands.

Please forgive me Nat, that's all I want.

When I die, I'm afraid of losing you, your voice, your smile, everything. Please don't forget me.

Future Clint and me now are imagining our last conversation together.

You forcing yourself to smile, even though you know you're about to cry. "What are you going to do now?" You asked me.

"Oh you know, do my mission, hurt people." I replied.

I watched your eyes glisten. "By yourself?"

And I had to nod, as your tears showed up.

I love you so much Nat, and I just want to say, I'm sorry.

I love you more than anything you'll ever know.

Love,

Clint

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