SC: Hey guys! This is just a short intro/one-shot/w/e thingy that randomly popped into my head that I felt like writing. It isn't actually mentioned in here, but yes, this is a KaixGaku fic. This is just a prologue-ish thingy, I haven't really decided on anything yet. Like I said, it was a random thing I just had to get down in words, so yeah, here ya go!~ :D

Oh, and sorry for leaving all you lovely readers hanging. I'm so busy lately because of university! Technically i really shouldn't be doing this right now.. especially with a chemistry exam tomorrow.. but i just had to, at least something for all those who are waiting ever so faithfully! I really will get to updating my other fic soon, just my monitor's been stolen by my parents to use on their computer, so I can't really get to my files right now.. T^T yes, so sad.. which is also why I'm posting this instead! :3

so again, enjoy~~

Prologue - Life/Death

I hear you walking up the steps. I can tell that you've had a bad day by your loud stomping. You open the door and I stand in front of you with a silent smile, waiting, and waiting, until you acknowledge me. It usually takes a while until you shut the door, take off your shoes, walk past me to go and change, take a sip of your favorite beer as you flop onto the couch, glance over your shoulder to stare at me with empty eyes, then manage a slight tilt of your head, letting me know that I've been noticed.

I stand there as if frozen in time, wishing my hopeless dreams would just stay buried, cursing it for springing back to life each time I'm in your presence. Why must I suffer this way? Why must I always stretch out my hand, longing for your touch, waiting, hoping, always, that you would truly love me back?

I wish you'd never found me. I wish I'd never followed. I wish I'd never been saved as I lay on the cold ground, waiting for the darkness to envelop me.

I wish the warmth had instead drained out of my body so that I would have been a lifeless doll by the time you spotted me.

I wish you had never been kind to me.

I wish I could be as heartless as you, so that I wouldn't feel the pain I do now.

I wish…

I wish…

You are a crook who cheated death from me.

You are a thief for stealing my heart from me.

You are a liar who promised me new life, for you are the murderer that took my heart and stabbed it over and again until it could bleed no more.

You are the sickest being on earth.

But then…

What does that make the person who loves such a man?

I must be the worst of them all.

So how'd you like it? -stares with sparkly eyes- it's quite depressing, yes, but .. well.. yeah... -_-;;

um, so if a lot of people like this, I may make this into another fic, so let's have those reviews coming about whether you like it or hate it or wanna scrunch it up and throw it out or w/e! XD

I may post a couple one-shots like this for the time being (if I ever get around to it) since I can't work on my other fic right now (due to certain thieving parents - but i love them! :D) and yeah, if a lot of people like some of them, maybe i'll work on those until I can get back to my other one :)

thankies to all yous who read this!~~ 3