Matrimony...
Who even knows what the damn
word means, I sure as hell don't anymore. Before I had known how to stay
faithful, sure I was an asshole to Debra, but at least I was faithful...
but what am I now?
An asshole of a husband,
who is falling --- or is already in love, with another man's wife.
And the man isn't much of
a husband to begin with, he treats her like shit... sure not in front of
the cameras, oh no good ol' cerebal assasin Triple H, would never show
the world that he abused Stephanie McMahon-Helmlsey, no he was too smart
to do that. So he waits until they're alone and he abuses her... emotionally,
verbally, physically... whatever.
And the people who actually
do know, don't do shit. They're too afraid of what "The Game" might do
to them, that they might be his next victims; So they keep their mouths
shut about the abuse he's putting poor Stephanie in.
But hey, I'm no better...
I can see what he is doing to her, and I just linger in the background
and don't do anything to help Stephanie, even if I tried... Hunter would
probably make up some lie to Vince to make me look like the bad guy, and
I wouldn't be able to be anywhere near Stephanie ever again. At least with
me not doing anything, I can be there to see if she is okay once the asshole
leaves... probably to screw another one of his whores.
Trish... Terri... They're
all the same, all blonde and all bimbos, how can he tell the difference
anymore?
She sits at home, crying
over her bruises, waiting for him to call for her to come pick him up because
he is too drunk to drive him himself and too much of a dumbass to call
a damn cab.
She doesn't deserve this,
can't anyone see that? She's beautiful, she deserves to be treated like
a queen, not Hunter Hearst Helmsley's punching bag. It makes me sick what
he does to her, he's killing her, literally.
With every punch, or kick,
or nasty threat or insult, he is killing her. I have been able to sit back
and do nothing for the longest time, but I can't do it anymore, I just
can't.
Why does she allow him to
treat her like that? She can't possibly think she deserves it.
Sure she has known to be
a major brat, but no one and I mean NO ONE deserves that sort of pain,
and in a perfect world no one would, but this world is not perfect... pain
does happen, and it's happening to her.
I don't want this to be happening
to her, maybe if she wasn't in so much pain, I wouldn't be in this situation.
"This situation" would be
me, Stone Cold Steve Austin, in love with Stephanie McMahon-Helmsley. I
don't know when it started, or why it started, but all I know is that it
controls me now. I can't even argue with Debra without thinking about Stephanie,
I can't look Debra straight in the eyes without feeling guilty because
of the thoughts of Stephanie in the back of my head. Debra doesn't know
about how I feel, or at least I don't think she does... and I hope she
never finds out.
It ain't fair, I know...
I'm not being fair to Debra, but I don't want to lose the only stable thing
in my life right now.
Stephanie, she's not stable.
She doesn't even know how I feel about her, she's like this unattainable
thing for me, and there's nothing I can do about that right now, but Debra...
she's stable.
I know, I sound like a complete
asshole... but some things you can't possibly stop... like my love for
the youngest McMahon.
She's probably the most ruthless
of them all, she's the most devious little thing I have ever seen in my
life... the way she came up with the plan to get her family back by marrying
Hunter was incredibly sneaky, never thought Stephanie had it in her.
And she's beautiful, and
incredibly warm.
I remember way back when
"The Undertaker" was trying to perform his black wedding or whatever that
shit was, I remember when I stopped it and rescued her... she had hugged
me... it had been weird. She felt so damn incredibly warm, that black cloak
flowing around us, as I tried to wiggle out of the hug.
Back then, that hug had taken
me by surprise, it had been so sudden, that I had instantly wanted to get
away from it. I should have known... even back in '99 that hug had made
me feel *weird*... but I didn't want to admit that anyone could make me
feel that way, well besides Debra.
Debra... she doesn't deserve
this shit, I treat her like awful... I'm close to being what Hunter is,
except I don't physically abuse Debra. Ever since I won this championship,
I have been a different man... it's like my soul was yanked away from me.
Everything I was before, was gone... No more fans, no more friends... except
well, Hunter.
And at first I enjoyed Hunter's
company, he proved to be a good friend... and Stephanie...
Well she came along with
the deal, Hunter and Vince became my friends and so did Stephanie... the
way she would smile at me gave me a little bit of my soul back, she would
smile at me when no one was looking, and I would return the smile half-heartidly.
I didn't know that Hunter
was abusing at first, Stephanie and Hunter looked so happy, but one day
I went to their locker-room early, and I saw Stephanie cleaning the mess
in the locker-room, her lip was bleeding... so I just put 2 and 2 together,
plus I asked her. She had been so scared, that she told me everything that
was happening, but made me promise never to tell, and I had agreed.
Why had I agreed, you ask?
Because she had came to me and told me everything, and she needed me to
keep her secret and be there for her, and if that was the only thing I
could give to Stephanie, I would give that to her.
It's been 2 months, since
I first found out that Hunter was abusing Stephanie, and it has been getting
worse, I don't know how much more of this I can stand.
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"Hey Steve,"
Her voice brings me out of
my thoughts, I look up and smile at the face of Stephanie McMahon-Helmlsey,
I furrow my eyebrows in anger when I see the cut right above her eyebrow.
He's done it again, he must have hit her, before she came to see me, because
the blood of the cut, isn't totally dry. The bastard, I usually try to
keep my cool around Stephanie, but Hunter fully knew that Stephanie was
coming to see me today, was he trying to do this to prove something? That
Stephanie was his and he could treat her anyway he liked?
"What happened?" I ask immediately,
pointing to the cut.
"Oh," She says quietly. "Little
mishap, I said something to Hunter, that angered him and he accidently
hit me." She sits down on the couch next to me.
"Accidently? Bullshit, he
hit you because he knew you were coming to see me, the fucking asshole!
I hate how he treats you, you don't deserve it!" My voice raises to an
all new high.
"Yeah!" She says, raising
her voice, I can see she is about to do something. "Do you know who I am?"
I raise my eyebrows, not
getting what she is trying to say. "Uh, what are you doing?"
"My name is Stephanie McMahon-Helmsley,
and I don't deserved to be treated like this!" She says in her best texan
accent, she grabs my hat off of my head and puts it on her head. "And that's
the bottom line because Stephanie McMahon-Helmsely says so!"
Forgetting my anger towards
Hunter earlier, I allow myself to laugh at Stephanie's mockery of me. Usually
I would get pissed off when someone made fun of me, but when she does it,
it makes me laugh. She's so innocent sometimes, the way she acts, how she
will grab my hat and put it on, grinning at me.
"Sure, Steph." I say, rolling
my eyes.
"Hey!" She says, pointing
at me. "Now don't make me go open a can of whoop-ass on you!"
I shake my head. "Okay, you
can stop now."
"Because I am one mean S.O.B."
She grins at me, her arms crossed across her chest.
I grin back at her. "Stop
now,"
She nods, sitting still now,
she turns to me and smiles. "You know Steve, you're not as evil as you
say you are. Deep down in that body of yours, you have a heart."
I stare at her, a serious
look reflecting in my blue eyes. "No I don't."
"I beg to differ. I see you
Stone Cold Steve Austin, I see your heart, I see your soul. Although no
one else can, I can..."
I stare at Stephanie, her
eyes hold a sadness to them, a sadness I can easily relate to. "Can I see
into yours?"
Stephanie doesn't seem shocked
by the question, more like saddened by it. "One day, when Hunter lets me
free, I'll come to you and let you see my soul. Until then, I have to be
stone cold, excuse the pun."
With those words, she gets
up and she's gone.
I stare at the place she
once accompanied...
Screw stable. Screw matrimony.