Okay this is just something I came up with. Dont be angry if you don't
like it just dont review it.
Disclaimer: I dont feel like messing with this right now, I dont own Sailor Moon.
Finding Myself
Prolouge
Rated R
By Earth Angel
Email: Silver_Earth_Angel@hotmail.com
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"Usagi, we here by take away your right to be Sailor Moon. We over rule you when it comes
to your safety. Please hand over the transformation locket. You will be able to keep the
crystal." Venus stood before me her hand out waiting for my locket. I wouldn't let them
take it from me. Instead I ran out of the room, making my way home. They had all betrayed me
even my Endymion. I was late to this battle, and on top of it all I had a broken arm.
It wasn't my fault I was late. I had been at the hospital having test done. What the senshi
didn't know was that I had tumor when I was only five. They had to run test every now and
then to make sure that it hadn't grown back after the operation. They hadden even bothered to ask
why I was late, that didn't matter much, what matter the most was the fact that I had been
hurt, when they were suppose to be protecting me, then their was the fact that I was late,
and the fact that I wasn't what they had wanted in a princess.
Okay, so maybe I wasn't meant to be a senshi or a princess. Usagi Tuskino. That
is who I thought I was. But I guess I was wrong. One day a black
cat with a yellow cercent moon on its forehead came to be and told me
that I was a sailor senshi, Sailor Moon to be exact, but that wasnt who I was
either. But something happened. I learned thats who I wasnt really.
I was Princess Serenity of the Moon Kingdom. But still that wasnt really who I was either.
The senshi wanted me to stop fighting. A princess should be delicate, graceful,
and smart. Everything that I wasn't. I tried to be a better fighter, and I did, even if I did
clutz out a few times. I went threw so much more than all the other senshi combined. Now they
try to pressure me into things. Trying to make me the princess that they want, the princess
that they expect. They never gave me a chance to be me. To live my own life. From the start
everyone has tried to make me someone that I am not. I can't live that life anymore. I need a
chance to become me. Without the pressure of the others. I love them all dearly, but it is
time that I found mysel, without them interferring with how I become. Besides they don't really
care about me. At some degree they do, but sometimes I can tell that the only reason that they
let me hang around is because I'm their princess that they have to protect. I've know that
sometimes they just want to hang around without me. I'm like a cling on to the group. And
as for my Mamo-chan. I do love him. Really I do. But sometimes I wonder if we had never found
out about our past lives if he would still be teasing me to no end, and having a relationship
with someone that was like a princess in everyway possible. If I become the princess that
they want thats great, if I become something better, that would be great too, and even
if I become some druggie hore on the streets, well, that wouldn't be so great. I'm not being
greedy. I'm not doing it only for myself. I'm doing it for them. The senshi and Mamoru.
I'm giving them the chance to be normal. To chose the life that they wanted. And in the
process I will find myself, decide just who I want to be, and maybe someday I will return
to check up on them. To make sure that they are alright, to show them that I have change and
they no longer need to protect me as they thought they had to, they would no longer need to
pretend that they loved me. But until that day they would have to think that I am dead.
I pulled out a bottle of pills from my cabniet and swallowed at least twenty of them,
maybe more. Earlier that day I had taken a couple of my bags and put them in a locker at the
train station. I laid down on the bed and waited for the sleep to take me over. What
no one knew was the fact that I was immortal. Sleeping pills wouldn't keep me dead forever.
No I would seem to be dead, and when they find the drugs in my blood stream while I remained
in the sleep of the dead. I would go through the funeral services, still asleep but before
they burried me I would awake and leave my family and my home forever. Leaving behind me only
three notes for my family and friends, my sucide notes.
@-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dear Senshi, Luna, and Artemis,
Don't worry. You didn't fail your mission. I failed mine. Don't feel guilt over my death.
I know at least one of you will. I love you all. I was never sure if you all loved me. But
that doesn't matter, as long as you know that I loved you. Mercury-stay smart and keep your
warm heart. Mars- Never lose that temper, it suits you. Jupiter- I hope that your resturant
goes well, you make the best foods, I'm sure that you will be famous someday. Kick some ass.
Venus- Work for your dreams, good luck to you in the movies. Youll find the right guy someday.
Luna- Keep nagging on the girls to keep up with their fighting techiques and grades.
Artemis- tell Luna you love her, I can see it in your eyes. For everyone- maybe someday
we will meet again.
Until the moon has changed and the stars are bright,
Selene watch over all of you,
Serena Usagi Tuskino
Sailor Moon
Princess Serenity
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dear Mamo-chan,
I know that you will miss me. This is a opprotunity for you to find a new life. A life that
is not controlled by the past. I love you. If I bring you saddness by taking my own life,
I am sorry, I know that you will get on with your life, and find someone new right away.
You don't need me. I had aways wondered what it would have been like if Sailor Moon and
Tuxedo Mask, and Prince Endymion and Princess Serenity never had taken a role in our lives.
You need to find a girl that is a true princess. Someone that is beautiful, graceful, smart
and delicate. Someone that you love with a passion. Be happy Mamoru, Remember that I
love you forever. Until we meet again.
Until the moon has changed and the stars are bright
Selene watch over you
I love you
Usako
@-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The last letter went to my parents and Shingo. I only asked for them to be happy that I had
found my freedom. I told them that I loved them and like I had told Mamoru and the senshi I
told them that we would meet agin when the moon had changed and the stars were bright. That
was a sentence they wont be able to understand until I come back. I took one last look at
my old room, as I started to pass out. When I woke up, it would be time for my new life to
start.
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I hope that you all enjoyed it.
like it just dont review it.
Disclaimer: I dont feel like messing with this right now, I dont own Sailor Moon.
Finding Myself
Prolouge
Rated R
By Earth Angel
Email: Silver_Earth_Angel@hotmail.com
@------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Usagi, we here by take away your right to be Sailor Moon. We over rule you when it comes
to your safety. Please hand over the transformation locket. You will be able to keep the
crystal." Venus stood before me her hand out waiting for my locket. I wouldn't let them
take it from me. Instead I ran out of the room, making my way home. They had all betrayed me
even my Endymion. I was late to this battle, and on top of it all I had a broken arm.
It wasn't my fault I was late. I had been at the hospital having test done. What the senshi
didn't know was that I had tumor when I was only five. They had to run test every now and
then to make sure that it hadn't grown back after the operation. They hadden even bothered to ask
why I was late, that didn't matter much, what matter the most was the fact that I had been
hurt, when they were suppose to be protecting me, then their was the fact that I was late,
and the fact that I wasn't what they had wanted in a princess.
Okay, so maybe I wasn't meant to be a senshi or a princess. Usagi Tuskino. That
is who I thought I was. But I guess I was wrong. One day a black
cat with a yellow cercent moon on its forehead came to be and told me
that I was a sailor senshi, Sailor Moon to be exact, but that wasnt who I was
either. But something happened. I learned thats who I wasnt really.
I was Princess Serenity of the Moon Kingdom. But still that wasnt really who I was either.
The senshi wanted me to stop fighting. A princess should be delicate, graceful,
and smart. Everything that I wasn't. I tried to be a better fighter, and I did, even if I did
clutz out a few times. I went threw so much more than all the other senshi combined. Now they
try to pressure me into things. Trying to make me the princess that they want, the princess
that they expect. They never gave me a chance to be me. To live my own life. From the start
everyone has tried to make me someone that I am not. I can't live that life anymore. I need a
chance to become me. Without the pressure of the others. I love them all dearly, but it is
time that I found mysel, without them interferring with how I become. Besides they don't really
care about me. At some degree they do, but sometimes I can tell that the only reason that they
let me hang around is because I'm their princess that they have to protect. I've know that
sometimes they just want to hang around without me. I'm like a cling on to the group. And
as for my Mamo-chan. I do love him. Really I do. But sometimes I wonder if we had never found
out about our past lives if he would still be teasing me to no end, and having a relationship
with someone that was like a princess in everyway possible. If I become the princess that
they want thats great, if I become something better, that would be great too, and even
if I become some druggie hore on the streets, well, that wouldn't be so great. I'm not being
greedy. I'm not doing it only for myself. I'm doing it for them. The senshi and Mamoru.
I'm giving them the chance to be normal. To chose the life that they wanted. And in the
process I will find myself, decide just who I want to be, and maybe someday I will return
to check up on them. To make sure that they are alright, to show them that I have change and
they no longer need to protect me as they thought they had to, they would no longer need to
pretend that they loved me. But until that day they would have to think that I am dead.
I pulled out a bottle of pills from my cabniet and swallowed at least twenty of them,
maybe more. Earlier that day I had taken a couple of my bags and put them in a locker at the
train station. I laid down on the bed and waited for the sleep to take me over. What
no one knew was the fact that I was immortal. Sleeping pills wouldn't keep me dead forever.
No I would seem to be dead, and when they find the drugs in my blood stream while I remained
in the sleep of the dead. I would go through the funeral services, still asleep but before
they burried me I would awake and leave my family and my home forever. Leaving behind me only
three notes for my family and friends, my sucide notes.
@-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dear Senshi, Luna, and Artemis,
Don't worry. You didn't fail your mission. I failed mine. Don't feel guilt over my death.
I know at least one of you will. I love you all. I was never sure if you all loved me. But
that doesn't matter, as long as you know that I loved you. Mercury-stay smart and keep your
warm heart. Mars- Never lose that temper, it suits you. Jupiter- I hope that your resturant
goes well, you make the best foods, I'm sure that you will be famous someday. Kick some ass.
Venus- Work for your dreams, good luck to you in the movies. Youll find the right guy someday.
Luna- Keep nagging on the girls to keep up with their fighting techiques and grades.
Artemis- tell Luna you love her, I can see it in your eyes. For everyone- maybe someday
we will meet again.
Until the moon has changed and the stars are bright,
Selene watch over all of you,
Serena Usagi Tuskino
Sailor Moon
Princess Serenity
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dear Mamo-chan,
I know that you will miss me. This is a opprotunity for you to find a new life. A life that
is not controlled by the past. I love you. If I bring you saddness by taking my own life,
I am sorry, I know that you will get on with your life, and find someone new right away.
You don't need me. I had aways wondered what it would have been like if Sailor Moon and
Tuxedo Mask, and Prince Endymion and Princess Serenity never had taken a role in our lives.
You need to find a girl that is a true princess. Someone that is beautiful, graceful, smart
and delicate. Someone that you love with a passion. Be happy Mamoru, Remember that I
love you forever. Until we meet again.
Until the moon has changed and the stars are bright
Selene watch over you
I love you
Usako
@-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The last letter went to my parents and Shingo. I only asked for them to be happy that I had
found my freedom. I told them that I loved them and like I had told Mamoru and the senshi I
told them that we would meet agin when the moon had changed and the stars were bright. That
was a sentence they wont be able to understand until I come back. I took one last look at
my old room, as I started to pass out. When I woke up, it would be time for my new life to
start.
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I hope that you all enjoyed it.