I woke as usual to two cold arms snaked around my waist a comfort that I was starting to gain a dependency on.
"Morning you"
"Morning my angel"
He breathed into my neck causing shivers to run down my spine. I turned in and nestled my head into his cold stone chest
"You know sometimes I wish you were more squishy"
"Well I'm sorry about that I could always leave…"
"No you're not going anywhere".
With all the force I could muster I planted my lips upon his cold ones, wrapping my self around when he tired to push me off. I knew that if he wanted me to let go there was nothing I could do to stop him, he was struggling just to irritate me. He stood up with me still coiled around him not even the slightest strain under my weight. This still shocked me and I would either be over conscious of my self around him or forget that not everyone else don't have his strength namely mike, who I had recently gotten close to. He had finally excepted that Edward was back and now we actually were friends. I didn't feel that he was waiting for my to get over Edward anymore that he was and always would be just a friend. Maybe it was due to his new girlfriend with whom he seemed smitten. Why was I thinking of mike? I tried to shake the thought out of my head. Edward who was still carrying me at that moment swung me around so that he could see my face, which obviously confused him more.
"Unwanted thought."
"And you thought that you could shake the thought out, you know Bella you always seemed to surprise me."
"In a good or bad way."
"Good always good your to perfect for anything about you to be bad, speaking of perfection what dose my Bella want to do to day."
"I don't know, how about we go to yours."
"Are you sure you want that"
"Let me guess Alice is just waiting to attack me with hair curlers or there's some sale and she thinks she can get away with spending money on me if it's slightly cheaper. Not taking into account that a 20 discount on something that count over a thousand dollars doesn't count as cheap."
"Can you read minds now too."
"No but I know Alice and I know she loves to torture me to bad that. Beside the spending money part I actually like shopping and I have gotten used to being trapped in a room all day while her and Rosalie play Barbie. Nothing phases me any more"
"Is that so, so you wouldn't mind if they take you away from me for the day"
"Well you could always join us if it shopping, and if it's makeover Bella time well I'll just have to suffer, I think I'm starting to gain a dependency on you"
"You say it like it a bad thing"
It is it's that bad that five minutes away from you starts to hurt, I don't wanna be that type of girl that can't be left alone, I want to have some independence to be able to stand on my own to feet"
Bella your not like that and its not like I don't want to spend every a minute away from you"
"You're missing the point"
"Well what is the point?"
"I don't know, well I do know but I don't know how to put it into words except to say I'm needy and I'm not sure I like it"
"You're not"
"Yes I am, I really am and I'm starting to realize how much, when you left I was a wreck it was like you died not left me I shouldn't have been like that I shouldn't have fallen apart like that I had responsibilities"
"I'm so sorry Bella there nothing I…"
"Don't interrupt me I'm ranking I need to get this out. Anyway so I was, well actually I was catatonic and then when being like that meant leaving, I woke up but it was like I was still asleep and then I clung to the first thing that gave me attention. Oh my god I'm such a bitch I strung Jake along I messed with his head. I'm still messing with his head and he was unquestionably loyal put up with all my crap and had to suffer through unrequited love. Fuck I'm a bitch, a slut without the sex. And when you came back I just pushed him aside, didn't even call to say I was back."
"Bella I don't think that you meant to hurt him"
"But I did."
"It's my fault…"
"Edward shut up I don't need your self pity." I stopped looking him in the eyes taking a deep breathe "We haven't really talked about when you left, about us, about our relationship, we just skipped it and got to the kissing not that I minded but Edward things happened while you were gone things changed, I changed"
"Do you still love me?"
"God Edward of coarse I love you, and yes I know you love me thanks to my epiphany, I really do but…"
"But"
"It's hard it's hard to trust you wont leave or something, not the point"
"Bella"
"Drop it Edward they're my issues and the only thing that will resolve it is time"
"You take all the time you need I'm here forever. I love you."
"I know I love you to, hey your distracting me"
"Sorry"
"Just shut up god how you frustrate me you and your smug know it allness well hey guess what your not always right… back to the point of this whole argument is that there are other people affected by us being together namely Jacob. Don't look at me like that I owe Jacob I owe him my life he was… he was my family."
I knew he was in love with me. And that to keep him, I had thought about actually being with him but now it was just something, simple family. Edward looked at me skeptically. I put my finger to his lips as he tried to speak ready to continue my… speech
"That's what he was to me, nothing more. I love you but I can't just stop talking to him. I have to fix this or get some closure at least he deserves. You can't tell me to forget or ignore him it's like telling you, you can't see Carlisle or Alice or any one else in yours he's family. But I'll try to work that out latter. Charlie, I hurt Charlie a lot and he's been a pretty cool dad, I need to fix that and rebuild trust with him. My friends at school I'm barley on speaking terms with a lot of them and then there your family. We have a lot to deal with before we can't get to the place we were before."
"I agree there are a lot of people who were affected by our separation but I believe all will work out in the end. But I was hoping we would be a little closer then last time"
"Well yes"
Edward brushed my cheek softly with his fingers then cupping my chin and pulling me to his lips. The coldness as always causing an electricity between us my breathing problem the only reason we stopped.
"I love you, so much so entirely I never knew I could feel this way you really have brought out my human side and only someone as wonderful and as perfect as you could do take. Problem is there's no on else like you so if you didn't exists I'd have never experience the happiness you brought me and would still be stuck in my starless night."
"You make me sound like some kind of … something that's important"
"Your are"
"Well that information doesn't solve my original problem that I have a dependency problem"
"It's only a problem cause you think it is, being together every minute of every day isn't that bad"
"No but I still am going to be more forceful with my side of an argument or sometimes tell you to piss off so I can have some only time or go shopping. I'm going to find some independence and put my foot down about more thing weather you like it or not"
"I think you're cute when you put your foot down"
"Shut up Edward come on where going to your house so Alice can attack me already"
authors note: ok so i love who ever reviews this story which might or might not be a one shot i don't know tell me cause i do have an idea. while writing this i was reading eslicpe don't worry no spoilers but its just i really have a soft spot for jacob he really gets the bad point of the stick and he's really lovable. i realise that alot of the hate for jacob is he's trying to take bella away from edward but if you ignore all of that and look at his character i think you'll fall in love with him to so cause i was bored i wrote a 20 reasons why we love jacob its very superfisal but i was drunk with friends and this is what we came up with review me please and thank you to "not done baking" for the spots on my spelling love ya lots
20 ReAsOnS WhY We LoVe JaCoB
1. He's tall come on tall guy's are hot
2. He's native America again hot
3. He was unconditionally there for Bella
4. He's a new werewolf and fights so hard to control his emotions so he can be there for Bella
5. He can fix cars (ok so lots of guys can do this but a girls gotta appreciate)
6. He acts like a puppy and you gotta love that
7. He's protective
8. He's funny
9. He really cares about friends, family, Bella
10. He's warm can't you just imagine hugging him on cold days a walking hot water bottle
11. He's not pushing (werewolf + height and strength don't have to obey to many rules)
12. He's in love with Bella unrequited love is so cute
13. He's a werewolf that alone is pretty cool
14. He's very perceptive
15. He's hot and tall and native America girls gotta love a little colour
16. He's a little bit of a rebel but's a good guy at heart (bad is fun but safe is good to)
17. He's a real friend
18. He's not superstitious
19. He has friends who are funny tall and native America
20. He's the hero of the book we love who stops Bella from practically killing herself and for that we are eternally grateful because the book in Bella's perspective and with out her no book
We love you Jacob