A/N: I do not own Glee, as you probably know. My idea's on what Finn's been probably thinking lately. It might seem a bit OOC, but I wanted to write it in good English so I could really get his point across. Anyway... enjoy, and let me know if you agree on my ideas xo

"Wait, Quinn, I still love you!" I shout as she slams the door behind her, running from the car, but as soon as the words escape my mouth, I know there's not a hint of truth in them.

Because when I look up, my eyes clouded from the tears, the girl I love is stood right in front of me. She's the only thing that's clear in my head and my eyes. The sight of Rachel Berry tugs on my heart. I can feel it, y'know, that tether thing that Sue was talking about with her sister. The tether that has continually bonded me to Rachel, and I never want to let it go again.

I know I've made a lot of mistakes in my time, but losing her was the hardest one to learn. Closely followed by getting back together with Quinn. Rachel, she asked me once why I could forgive Quinn for doing something so much worse than what Rachel did. I didn't know the answer then, but looking at Rachel and feeling the pulling towards her beauty and love, I know it now.

It didn't hurt so much when Quinn cheated. In fact it barely hurt at all. Because the intensity of the love that I felt for Rachel made her actions hurt so much more. I never thought she would hurt me in such a way, because we had this love that we shared that was unbreakable. In a way, I kind of expected it from Quinn. But never from Rachel; she was supposed to be there when it was good and bad, and never ever break me. She did though, into a hundred pieces, crushing me. I thought that being back with Quinn would fix me, pull me back to some sense of reality. But really, she just pushed me farther away from Rachel.

And now, finally, the tether is nudging me, telling me to take a step in the right direction and put my heart back together. Because what I want, what I really want is Rachel. I see it now.

So I go, I drive.

When I stand outside the auditorium door, I take a deep breath, sigh and push it open. I've bought for Rachel the most striking flower I've ever seen. A white lily, tinged with pink because it reminds me of her. So pure and beautiful on the inside, surrounded by colour and brightness. I walk in, my heart heavy and full of hope. There she is; smiling that vivacious smile I recognise so much. I used to be the one that put that smile upon her face. Now someone else is doing it… is that, Jesse?

And they're hugging.

And he's kissing her.

And they're walking away.

And for me, it's over.

I let the flower wilt and walk away.

I'm broken, once again, by the only girl who's ever ruled my heart.