Wonder
She lightly taps on the window to signal her presence.
You wonder if she knows her feelings have been revealed through another.
*
She quietly approaches the balcony.
You wonder if she knows the fortitude it takes to ask her.
She shyly gives her reply with a nervous grin.
You wonder if she knows the last time you truly smiled.
*
She aims to make a joke.
You wonder if she knows her gentle humor would carry you through a lifetime.
She anxiously fingers her napkin.
You wonder if she knows the countless times you've imagined her hands entwined with yours.
*
She enters your office and refuses you, denies you.
You wonder if she knows the quaver in your chin is something you never want her to see.
*
She arrives at the hotel prepared though breathless.
You wonder if she knows you are elated to see her.
She asks after her room with uncertainty.
You wonder if she knows you would never disregard her.
*
She steps out of her room weary and overworked.
You wonder if she knows you can hear your heart over the blaring music.
She rambles on endlessly avoiding your eyes.
You wonder if she knows hearing her voice brings you peace.
She hastily walks away leaving you desolate.
You wonder if she knows she has endangered you with another sleepless night.
*
She comes into your office to reassure your actions.
You wonder if she knows the warmth of her hand is there long after she is gone.
*
She feels your hand on her shoulder.
You wonder if she knows you want to seize her to your body and hold her.
She speaks of sweet tea.
You wonder if she knows you wish to gaze at her for hours rather than seconds.
She pours herself a cup.
You wonder if she knows you want to murder the person that rang your mobile.
She stands her back to you whilst you prepare to leave.
You wonder if she knows you are foolishly waiting for a kiss farewell.
*
She sits in your office in your chair.
You wonder if she knows she is the only one allowed to do such a thing.
She ignores your advice to stay home and rest.
You wonder if she knows she has thrilled you again with her company.
*
She asks question after question to discern your meaning.
You wonder if she knows you relish being so close to her.
She looks at you as if attempting to read your thoughts.
You wonder if she would delight in hearing your intentions.
She turns away disconcerted and abashed.
You wonder if she knows you are considering terminating a certain individual for spoiling their moment.
*
She discounts your pleas of concern.
You wonder if she knows you repute her obstinate nature.
She steps into the pod smiling up at you inches from your face.
You wonder if she knows you savor her delicate essence.
She steps out of the car to her home.
You wonder if she knows you want nothing more than to follow her up her steps into her dwelling.
*
She is ushered away frightened and shaken.
You wonder if she knows you will stop at nothing to protect her.
She hears your hollering shouts of anger.
You wonder if she knows your agony having them take her away.
*
She is presumed lying there cold under a sheet.
You wonder if your knees will buckle beneath you when you see her.
She isn't on the solid metal bed.
You wonder where to find her.
*
She turns to you relieved and distraught.
You wonder if you will survive without her.
She feigns optimism.
You wonder how you can keep her for a little while longer.
She breathes her goodbye through the sorrow.
You wonder why it took so long to tell her.
She speaks of wonderful things unsaid.
You wonder if she knows you love her.
She caresses your cheeks with her soft hands.
You hope she knows you love her.
She solemnly presses her lips to yours.
You desire she knows you love her.
She whispers away your hopes of a future.
You believe she knows you love her.
~fin