Song One Shot
Song: Last Resort by Papa Roach
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Allen looked out his window; it was a dark night… It had been a whole year since he had killed all of his friends… Why? Why was I chosen to be the Destroyer of Time? Tears began to fall from his golden eyes, while he began to rock himself back and forth on his windowsill.
This is my last resort
It is all my fault… Everyone… The Order, the Noahs, the people… All me… Why? Why God? Why did you make me do this? I can't live like this! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Allen's mind was filled with images of everything he had done in the past few days… He couldn't help himself, he told himself… He just… snapped… Not my fault… Didn't mean too… God's fault… All God's fault… He replayed the scene from the other night over in his head. The Noahs and the Exorcists were in a large battle, both sides had already lost many; Allen had been fighting on the Noah side, for he had truly no other choice…
'cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Then, he felt a sharp pain in his head and fell to the ground clutching his head in his hands. "Kill… Kill… KILL!" said a voice within his head. "NO!" Allen had screamed out into the darkness that had filled that night. He tried with all his might… But his might was not enough to fight the voice… He collapsed on the cold ground.
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
"Mana… Why did you leave me with more than one curse?" Allen asked with fresh tears forming in his eyes. All Mana's fault… All God's fault… Not mine… It was not me who killed them… It was Mana and God… No one else… I killed no one! DAMNIT! I KILLED NO ONE I SAID!!! NO ONE!!!
'cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
The moment Allen had fallen, exorcists and Noah alike came rushing to his side. "ALLEN! ALLEN!" everyone screamed, even if they were on different sides, the person that could bring them together had just fallen after screaming, although he had no wounds. This was even more the reason to rush to his side. Road and Lavi were the closest to the boy and reached him first. "Allen!? Are you ok!? Wake up! I need to know if you are ok!" yelled Road, not angrily, but concerned. "Allen! It's Lavi! Please be ok… We are sorry… We really are… You can be with whoever you want to… Or both if you want! But just be ok!"
I can't go on living this way
Allen looked around his room… He then spotted the exact thing that he wanted… A knife… A sharp, shiny knife that looked oh so inviting right now… There was nothing more that he wanted right now than to end it all… Stop this agony he had to live with; this weight atop his shoulders…
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
"L-lavi? R-road? Run…" those were the only words he could get out before he felt something inside his head again… "Huh?" both Lavi and Road said in unison. "Hehehe… I warned you…" Allen himself didn't even know what he was doing, until it was too late… He just herd the screams, saw the blood, and felt the flesh being ripped to shreds by his own hands.
'cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
Everyone just stared… They didn't know if they should believe what they had just seen; Allen had just killed comrades on both sides… Then, instantly, everyone else was gone… Allen had killed them all, with his own two hands… I KILLED THEM ALL! NO! WHY!? WHY, GOD!? WHY!?
I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's alright
Allen reached for the knife, and at that moment, he had chosen his own path… "Sorry, Mana… I can't keep walking; I had destroyed my path… There is no other path for me to walk… I will see you soon… I am sorry, Mana, I have broken my promise…" Allen then held the knife right up to his heart, and the next thing he knew… everything went black… Good bye…