The world passes by me;
A blur of color and movement.
I stand still in the stream of people,
My life on hold while others speed by me.
I could stand in the middle of the street,
Hearing nothing.
Oblivious to the honks and cries
That fill the darkening sky.
I could be lying on my bed,
Hoping and wishing that someday,
I might hear a baby's cry;
The roar of a waterfall.
I could be sitting in a crowed classroom,
Students buzzing around me,
And I would sit.
Alone.
That day is today.
My fellow classmates are chattering,
Laughing.
No one would pay attention
To the girl who sits alone.
And then I see him.
A gentle smile,
Soothing sky blue eyes.
His smile makes me melt inside,
It always has.
Those eyes,
They capture any girl's heart.
Countless hearts,
Including mine,
Are in his hand.
He will never know of me,
The quiet girl in the corner.
I watch him from afar,
for he would never love me.
I could be sitting in the bleachers,
Watching the whirl
Of red and white jersey's fly by me.
I would sit there,
Drowned in the silence
That is my life.
I could be in my mother's arms,
Crying out all my frustration about my limitations.
Never would I hear her words,
The comforting words spoken to soothe me.
I could be lying on my bed,
Hoping and wishing that someday,
I could hear the lover's cry;
My own mother's soothing voice.
I could be at graduation,
Red gown and all.
Never would I hear my name.
Never would I hear his name.
For he will never know my name,
Never know of my secret love.
For he would never love me.
He would never love a girl like me.
A girl who sits cowering in the corner,
Hiding her secret disability from the world.
No one loves a person,
Who is drowned in silence.
Who collapses daily due to her struggles.
Who struggles through life
Without hearing a baby's cry;
The roar of a waterfall.
I love him.
He would never love me.
My name is Gabriella Montez,
And I was born deaf.