Meeting you was an accident.
He left Tuesday night. I wasn't on the driveway waving goodbye, blowing kisses, or even cozy in one of his oversized sweatshirts with the smell of his cologne.
I was standing at the window, watching as the tires turned and the car left my view. If you couldn't see the picture clear enough, tears were running down my face. What was the point of even wearing makeup? Who am I trying to impress anymore?
I turned my head quickly to look in the rearview mirror. She was standing at the window, just as expected. She was a mess. I sighed and hesitated to keep going. I couldn't leave her. I couldn't.
The car reached the end of the driveway. Pushing on the brakes sent something through me. I stopped going. I could turn around and see her one last time.
I still regret that moment. A lot.
You know why?
Because I turned left.
I slowly paced over to the computer with my head looking at the floor. He was gone.
Life is supposed to keep on going, right?
But what if your life left you?
So, is mine over?
I opened up my laptop and checked my emails. I scrolled through all of them for the fifth time today, but one at the very bottom caught my attention.
June 23, 2010
dear miss juliet,
gosh you look beautiful sleeping
I wonder what you're dreaming about
hopefully it's me
you just whispered my name
baby, can you do that again?
when you see this I hope that beautiful smile grows across your face
love you dear
-your romeo
I felt my throat closing on me from crying so hard. I grasped for air and when I did a sob escaped from my heart.
I pulled out my phone and called him. Hopefully he wasn't too far into the city yet.
He picked up, but nothing was said. I turned the volume all the way up, my cries being heard by the man that left me.
Sometimes silence was a beautiful thing.
She was on the phone crying. I pulled over into a rest stop and took the phone and put it up to my ear. The cries seemed to calm down.
Logan- baby?
Kaylee- why didn't you come back
There was a silence and then a sigh was released.
Logan- I thought I was chasing my dream
She was quiet.
Kaylee- you are though.
Logan- no, I wasn't chasing my dream, I was running away from her.