I'm testing the waters with this. This story will be told in two first-person POV...Ryoma's and Tezuka's. It's my first ever TezuRyo...please enjoy!

Angst...I don't want to disappoint you people.

Disclaimer: I don't own POT ^_^

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There are a lot of things in my life that I regret. Not spending more time to know my friends, always listening to what older people said, always trying to be the perfect son...these are some of those things that I regret.

But the biggest regret that I have, is watching him walk away me...betrayed and hurt. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and grab on to him and hold him close and apologize for the things that I said.

But I couldn't...I could only watch the fleeting image of his back from my memory.

I regret not telling him the truth...that I love him.

If only the wind could convey my feelings, I will shout it with all my might so that it would carry it to him wherever he may be right now.

I love you Ryoma and I will find you!

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It all began during the opening ceremony of Seigaku High. I was in my third year and I was speaking in front of the student body as its council president. My calculating eyes scanned the mass of over-excited first years until it stopped at a particular face in the crowd.

I was drawn in by those golden orbs that seemed to gleam under the dull light of the gymnasium. I felt my heart quicken its pace and my breath starting to get shallow. I'm drowning in his intense gaze. I didn't realize I stop in mid-sentence.

"Ahem...Tezuka-kun?" The principal cleared his throat as a strange hush swiped passed the gymnasium.

I felt my face grew a little hot as I raked my brain for the rest of my speech. I could hear the soft chuckles of my friend and tennis teammate, Fuji, from the corner of the stage. I took in a deep breath and gathered my composure. I forcefully tore my eyes away from the golden-eyed stranger and continued on with my monologue.

But I couldn't help myself from stealing another glance but to my dismay, I couldn't see him anymore. He was lost in the crowd of dark blue and I couldn't find him.

It gave me an unnatural rush...I knew it was wrong and I knew, even before my mind was enraptured in his gaze that the person was of the same gender: a boy. How could I, the perfect Tezuka Kunimitsu, be attracted to men? My grandfather will have my head for even such a thought.

"It must be the eyes." I muttered to myself.

"Don't tell me you saw a cutie amongst the youngsters, Tezuka. I didn't know you had it in you."

I stopped dead on my tracks to glare at the smiley face that suddenly appeared in front of me. I knew he wouldn't let me off so easily. "What are you saying Fuji?" I asked, getting a bit irritated inside but it failed to register on my face...as usual.

The tensai's lips curled up into a sinister smile. "It better be a girl Tezuka or else I'll get really angry." He just winked at him playfully before sashaying away towards the tennis courts. Their other teammates were preparing for the club recruitment activities.

I let out a wary sigh. He said it better be a girl. "This is bad." I muttered to myself. Fuji was very vocal about his feelings for me but was kind enough to step back because he knew I wouldn't stray from the norms of society because of my family.

He said he'd never forgive me if I fall for another boy... I was "his" he said.

I wouldn't have permitted such atrocity but since he agreed to keep his feelings at bay and not try to convert me, I went along with it.

Did I make a grave mistake?

"Oi Tezuka!"

My eyes snapped back in attention to refocus on the figure running towards me. I blinked a couple of times before I realized it was my friend and the vice captain of the club, Oishi who was rushing towards me.

"Oishi." Gave him a curt nod, a bit confused at how rattled he looked.

"What are you slugging there for?" The so-called mother hen gasped. "There's trouble in the courts!"

An eyebrow sneakily arched up. "If there's trouble then why did you have to come get me?" Are they incapable of dealing with things like these without my help? I worry sometimes that my team's being babied by Oishi too much.

The boy just shook his head and grabbed my hand and started dragging me towards the courts. "Just hurry!"

And so I let him drag me but with a clear number of laps to be ran in my head as punishment. We came into the courts but I could hardly even listen to my own head thinking because of the noise that filled the air. Apparently, there was an on-going match. That's the least that I can deduce during that time. The majority of the club members were half cheering-half yelling at the players inside the court.

It made my head throb. Personal matching is not allowed without the permission from the coach or the club officers.

"Not only that he's captivating but that golden eyed boy is really talented."

My eyes snapped open when I heard those words. Golden-eyed boy...golden-eyed boy...now I'm really interested. I felt my heart quickened its pace once more as I strode towards the fence. I'm intrigued...I want to see his face. I want to see his eyes once more.

My breath got caught in my throat when I came to stand close to the wire fence. There before me, like a graceful lynx dancing across the concrete, was the boy I saw earlier...the boy with the golden eyes whose gaze made my mind reel.

There he was...my undoing in human flesh.

That day he became my tormentor and I don't even know his name.

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A/N: Too ambiguous? Wahahah I'll try trying two stories at the same time. This haunted me in my sleep but don't worry. I'll try my best to update and finish MY IMMORTAL. I just have to get this one out of my head. ^_^ Enjoy!

Note: Too many RyoSaku fics or FemRyo fics I see...WHERE ARE ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS? NOT ENOUGH YAOI! NOT ENOUGH YAOI! WHERE ARE OUR YAOI STORIES!