If you are reading this, then it's my pleasure to try and interest you with these series of drabbles that I will be writing for the next fifteen weeks for Another Artist's "A Little is a Lot" Challenge. Hope you guys enjoy it!

May 24, 2011

So I present to you the first drabble!

In Your Heart

Amy's POV

It's been so long time since the clue hunt has ended, and a few years since the defeating of the Vespers, and one year since Dan's death. I really miss Dan's silliness, but strange sense of optimism that he would always put on during the hunt. It's really strange, but even though I'm Dan's older sister, I feel like Dan protects me more than I protect him, and right now, I have no idea what to do with myself without Dan. He was always the one who would stand up for me every time Natalie, Ian, or anyone ever tried to tease or bully me. I always thought that Dan would always stay my annoying brother that I could always call "dweeb," but now, he's gone, and I didn't have the chance to say goodbye.

Today, I've been a wreck. I don't know what to do because this day will always stab me in the heart whenever I think of Dan. For this whole day, I've ever sat in bed or I stare out into space, hoping the Dan would just open the door and yell "Hey Amy! I'm starving! Do you have anything made for me," and I would reply by saying, "I'm not your maid Dan! Why don't you go make yourself something?" However, in reality, Dan won't be coming home, and he won't ever be coming home. This makes me really hurt but what really hurts the most was that for two years before Dan died, Dan was in Japan learning to perfect his ninja skills, and all we were able to use to communicate with were Sharpies and sticky-notes, and so really, Sharpies and sticky-notes made up our last memories. However, these memories will only stay with me and not Dan.

Dan, however, if he were to still be alive would say that he wouldn't me to be like this, and that I should move on and not to let his death affect me so much. That's why I'm here for a little support, and where do I normally get support from? Dan, of course. Yes, I'm here at his gravestone, and although some people think graves are rather gloomy and sad, but I fine this one to be rather soothing and peaceful. I'm so glad that I came here. I feel really relaxed, and I feel Dan's presence around me silently yelling and running around me like he used to do all the time.

Today, I decided to bring all the sticky-notes that Dan and I sent each other because we thought they were funny. Originally, I decided I would burn them in front of Dan's grave because all they brought me seemed to be sadness and depression, but I actually decided against it. These sticky-notes are everything that I have left of Dan when we weren't around each other. I'm sitting right in front of Dan's grave, thinking about how I actually was able to survive living by myself in Boston without Dan, and I concluded that it was because I knew that Dan was still alive and that we would see each other someday, but the day when the letter from the Martial Arts Academy in Japan arrived to inform me that Dan no longer existed in this world tore me apart. For weeks, I didn't know what to do with myself, and almost everyone that cared about me were worried about me.

I had lived my whole life with Dan and we had gone through so much together, and I repay him by becoming depressed when he dies. Now that I think about it, it's rather lame and silly to think I won't be able to see Dan anymore. Well, it's true that I won't be able to see Dan, the human body, ever again, but sitting here at his grave made me realize something about "losing" the people you truly love: you never really forget them, they'll always be in your heart as long as you continue to love them. Though it's sad that Dan won't be here in my life, I'm sure Dan will be looking out for me like he always did, but from now on, he'll be doing it in spirit. I lie down on the grass and watch the colorful sticky-notes fly into the air as I throw them up into the sky, and as I do so, I see a cloud form a faint smile shape, and I smile too, thinking about Dan.

*sobs* and *cries* Well, not really. However, I did feel a pain pass through me as I wrote this first drabble. When I first started to write this, I didn't know how to connect it to the prompt, and I didn't want to write about Amy and Ian, since I normally would, so I tried to write about Amy and Dan's bond.

I'm sure you all have read the books and know how annoying Dan and Amy could be to each other, but that's sort of what makes a good sibling relationship. They aren't fighting with each other, they just tease each other, but when it comes to team work, you wouldn't be able to find a better pair than those two, that is in my opinion.

I hope you liked it, and please leave a comment in a review telling me what went wrong and what I should improve and keep, I'll really appreciate it!

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