Chapter One
A message from the author:
Well, this isn't my first fic, but it is my first yaoi, and my first on this account. I just wanna say a few quick things about my fic and give a few explanations before you get started. A lot of the content in my fic may seem a little eerily familiar to those of you that have played the game. This fic is basically…the game in Sephiroth's point of view. Instead of following Cloud and company, I decided to follow Sephiroth around
You'll notice a few strange things as the fic progresses such as my concepts. My sister and I have come up with our own 'concepts' of what really went on in Sephiroth's head and why he did some things and why…he acts the way he does. This fic only holds a few surprises seeing as most of us know what will happen in the end. But I promise that I'll make the ending worth while to those that chose to stick with it. At the beginning of some chapters, I'll have a quick explanations about our ideas and what's going on.
Before that though, a quick reminder: THIS FIC IS RATED M FOR A REASON. YAOI IS CONTAINED. IF YOU FLAME ME BECAUSE YOU DON'T LIKE MALE/MALE SEX THEN I WILL ONLY LAUGH BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN FORWARNED! SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE MANSEX, THEN LEAVE. (lol, sorry Xemnas, but some people do think it's disgusting.)
Explanation #1:
Sephiroth was really 'possessed' by Jenova in the Nibel Reactor. He managed to break free from her after Cloud threw him into the wall, but could feel her fighting for control and jumped in order to stop her…and himself from hurting the one he loved.
And now, without further delay, Chapter One of "Through Different Eyes"
Enjoy.
Chapter One
'And what I'd give to have it back…'
"Well, the good news—we have two separate rooms," Zack announced as he entered the lobby of the Nibelhiem Inn. "The bad news is one of the rooms only has one bed……meaning two will have to share…" his voice trailed.
"I don't mind," one of the army soldiers said after a brief silence. Another silence followed, a little longer this time.
"I can," Sephiroth volunteered. Under his helmet, the army man flushed a little. Zack gladly gave Sephiroth the room key, and kept the other one for himself. He and the other army man walked up the stairs and went into their room. "Shall we?" Sephiroth said, turning to the army personnel. He gave a weak smile in return, and followed Sephiroth to the next door down.
The room was dark and somewhat warm when they entered. On the left was a door that led into a decently sized bathroom with a rather large walk-in shower. On the other side of the entrance was a smaller room with one rack running through the middle—a closet. Closer to them, was a small round table with two chairs on either side, and a lamp in the center of the table. Sure enough, only one double bed sat somewhat close to the far wall of the room. Just beyond that was a window covered with blinds and curtains falling on either side of the pane. A bright orange floated in between the blinds indicating the sunset.
"It's getting close to dark," Sephiroth said, setting his bag inside the closet. "We should get some rest." The soldier nodded as his idol turned to face him. "By the way, you never said your name."
"Oh, i-it's Cloud," he replied somewhat abruptly, taking off his helmet as he spoke.
"Cloud? Cloud…" he repeated in a distant way. "That's a…nice name. You said you were from here, correct?"
"Yeah…" Cloud replied a little embarrassed for some reason. He turned away and walked a little toward the bathroom, pacing a little.
"Did you see your friends and family yet?" Sephiroth asked. He began to get ready for bed as he spoke.
Cloud hesitated before answering. "Not yet…I was going to wait until after the mission…" he trialed.
"I'll give you the time you need," Sephiroth assured. Cloud turned to face him again. He smiled for a moment, then noticed Sephiroth sitting on the edge of the bed in only his boxers. He flushed a little and turned away. "Oh, if you mind—" Sephiroth added reaching for his pants.
"No—it's fine," Cloud composed himself, "I just didn't know you were—er…"
"You're sure?" Sephiroth asked. Cloud nodded. Feeling a little awkward Cloud took off his clothes down to just his boxers. He began digging through his bag looking for his pajamas. Sephiroth watched him, amused somewhat, and smiling as Cloud dumped out the contents of his bag. "What are you looking for?" he chuckled.
The blond sighed, defeated. "I—er...forgot my pajamas…" He felt really awkward saying it, and even more so that he was in nothing more than his boxer shorts.
Sephiroth chuckled a little louder. "It's fine if you just sleep in that." Cloud felt his cheeks grow a little warm as he hesitated. He agreed though—what other options were there? He curled up into a ball under the warm covers as Sephiroth slid in beside him.
Cloud stirred as he felt a little something on his ear. He felt something slid down across the lobe, and then what felt like a gentle nip. He turned over a little, and the tongue complied, licking down his jawbone and to his neck. Soft lips planted ginger kisses across his throat.
"Sephiroth?" he whispered, still half asleep. Sephiroth wrapped an arm around him as he trailed kisses back to his ear, nipping his lobe again. "What're you doing?" He felt his face get a little warmer.
"Shhh…I promise I'll be gentle," Sephiroth whispered. Before Cloud could react, he felt warm lips press against his own. Sephiroth's tongue glided across his teeth demanding entrance to the warm mouth. Unsure, Cloud parted his jaw a little, Sephiroth's tongue intertwining with his own. Sephiroth pulled himself closer to Cloud, putting himself on top. Cloud's hands ran through silver hair as its owner's hands moved down his side, resting on either side of his hips.
"Sephiroth," Cloud whispered as their lips parted. "I've…never really…"
"Shhh," he shushed again. "Don't worry." Their lips met briefly again, and when they pulled apart, Sephiroth added, "I'll lead."
He brushed Cloud's lips again, letting his tongue slide in to Cloud's mouth. The blond's eyes closed as he wrapped his own tongue around Sephiroth's. Sephiroth pulled Cloud a little closer by the hips where his hands were still clasped. Cloud's face flushed a bright red as he felt Sephiroth's hard erection brush his own briefly. He felt his own pulsing and throbbing almost achingly as they met again. Sephiroth's hands rubbed gently down from Cloud's hips slipping down his boxers as he caressed his ass.
His eyes snapped open again as he felt a soft grip placed on his aching member. He tightened his grip on Sephiroth's hair as fingers tickled down his shaft, his thumb circling around the head tauntingly. His eyes almost rolled back into his head as he let out a soft moan. Sephiroth smirked, pushing the boxers down a little further letting them fall down around Cloud's knees. His hand moved back to the now exposed arousal, rubbing it teasingly. Cloud moaned softly again, his head rearing back a little in pleasure.
Sephiroth let out a soft chuckle as he moved down Cloud's body, planting small kisses along his torso. He trailed his tongue down his shaft slowly, receiving another moan in response. He circled the head a little, letting his tongue slide just barely on the tip, and nipping lightly on the head. Cloud let out a moan of painful pleasure, and he tensed again when Sephiroth bit harder. Sephiroth swirled his tongue around the top of his throbbing erection, and Cloud leaned inward in response, causing the shaft to prod a little ways into Sephiroth's mouth. Sephiroth took the gesture, taking him in. Cloud's grip tightened a little more on the silver locks as Sephiroth bobbed his head. He moaned a little louder feeling himself climax. He could feel himself about to ejaculate as Sephiroth moved faster and faster.
Suddenly it stopped. Cloud was panting hard—as was Sephiroth. "Why…why'd you stop?" Cloud asked between breaths.
He felt warm breath glide across his ear as Sephiroth spoke. "You try."
Sephiroth rolled over onto his side of the mattress onto his back and Cloud crawled on top of him. He inched Sephiroth's boxers down until they were kicked off onto the floor. The blond wasted no time. He scaled Sephiroth's body downward until he reached the vertex of his pelvis. Cloud licked across the general's testes then down his penis. Sephiroth managed to swallow his moan, letting out only a deep sigh as he gripped the blond's locks tightly. Cloud licked a little of the precum off of the head. In pleasure, Sephiroth thrust forward. Cloud almost gagged as the entire shaft pushed down his throat. A moan escaped from Sephiroth. Cloud moved his head slowly up then down letting his tongue swirl around the hard mass. He repeated the motion, growing faster and with every time.
Sephiroth moaned a little louder, propelling himself forward with Cloud and fisting the blond locks. Just for fun, Cloud bit gently, letting his teeth scrape lightly across the shaft. This caused Sephiroth to gasp and moan even louder as he felt a climax coming. Before he could calm himself, he climaxed, letting a fountain of semen rush into Cloud's mouth. It tasted bitter, but somehow pleasurable, and out of reflex, Cloud swallowed it.
He moved himself back upward, Sephiroth's soft lips meeting him halfway. Cloud and Sephiroth closed their eyes as they kissed again, this time a little more abrasively passionate. Cloud rested his arms around Sephiroth's neck, and Sephiroth's around Cloud's waist. His hands caressed Cloud's waist and down his firm behind. He pulled Cloud up a little causing Cloud's legs to rest on his knees between Sephiroth's legs. Their erections grazed again as Cloud moved forward with Sephiroth's push.
Sephiroth rubbed the blond's ass again before inserting a finger inside him. Cloud's eyes snapped open again as he moaned in Sephiroth's mouth, his eyes hooded in pleasure. Sephiroth writhed around a bit, adding another digit to further stretch him. After a moment, he sat up, Cloud sitting on his lap. As he sat up, the fingers pressed a little deeper inside, Cloud moaning at the feeling. Sephiroth broke the kiss and laid Cloud down on his stomach. He positioned Cloud so that his back arched in the air, his ass faced upward, and his stood upward a little on his knees. Sephiroth knelt behind him, standing up on his knees so that they were about even.
Cloud moaned in pain as Sephiroth thrust inward. The penetration was powerful and deep as Sephiroth drove in a little harder. Cloud felt his eyes water and his hands grip the covers tightly. Sephiroth's hands pulled on either side of Cloud's hips forcing the penetration in further every thrust. He began to move faster and harder every time, Cloud moaning in painful pleasure. He felt like if he was pounded any harder, he would scream in mad orgasm. Sephiroth teased him.
"Seph…i…roth…" he moaned between thrusts. Sephiroth chuckled a little, and plunged harder and harder. He went until he was exhausted and had climaxed again. Cloud fell limply to the bed as Sephiroth pulled out.
"I have to get a shower in the morning," Sephiroth managed between pants. "I think I'll go ahead." He stood and walked toward the door. He stopped and half looked at Cloud over his shoulder. "You can join me if you like." He walked into the bathroom and after a moment the water started. Cloud sat up on the bed for a moment. Sephiroth had invited him in, so it'd be rude not to comply…
Sephiroth rinsed his hair tenderly, running his hands through the silver locks. After a moment the walk-in's door slid open, then closed again. He didn't open his eyes—he pretended not to notice. He felt warm arms wrap loosely around his waist, the hands clasping and falling against the small of his back. He hugged the body tightly, so that there was no space between them. Sephiroth's hands pressed against Cloud's back, caressing him every few moments. He rested his head in the burrow of Cloud's neck. Cloud's head rested gently on Sephiroth's chest. He could hear Sephiroth's heart beat quietly echoing inside his chest; somehow, it soothed him.
They stood like that—for what seemed like hours—as warm water just poured over their backs. Neither of them wanted to move or say anything, just stay in each other's arms for another lifetime.
"Something bad is going to happen tomorrow." Sephiroth said hoarsely.
"Wha—what are you talking about?" Cloud looked upward into deep pools of lifestream that gazed back at him. They were filled with so many emotions at once—it confused him.
"I…can feel it," Sephiroth whispered. "Something bad. Whatever happens, Cloud…" he trailed.
"Sephiroth…what's wrong?" Cloud replied, searching his face for answers.
"Whatever happens…don't…don't let me hurt you," Sephiroth said.
Sephiroth pulled out of the embrace and turned the water off. Opening the door, he stepped out and dried his hair with a soft towel. Cloud stepped out after him. He studied the man's face as he dried off—his eyes full of worry and a mystery he could never know.
The next night, the entire town had burned. Sephiroth found out the truth about himself…and it destroyed him. So he destroyed everything in his way.
The flames were hot around his face. He lifted his head slowly, unsure of what'd happened. He glanced around—the whole city engulfed in flames. Surely no one could've survived. He slumped against the house behind him.
"Hey—you're still sane, right?" he heard a gruff voice say nearby. "Come over here and help me." Cloud looked through the flames trying to find the owner of the voice. "You check that house over there—I'll check this one."
He heard footsteps nearby…a door opened somewhere close to him. He saw a man come out of the nearby house. Was that…? The figure shook his head sadly, and took a step further.
"Za...Zack?" Cloud managed as he moved slightly. It hurt deeply.
"Cloud? You're—I'm glad you're okay," Zack said running to his side.
"Who…who did this?" Cloud asked, managing to sit up a little further.
"He…he said it was…Sephiroth," Zack replied slowly.
"No……no, it couldn't…" Cloud couldn't bring himself to the truth.
No one really survived the incident…only me and Zack. Everyone else was…gone...just like that. My mother, my hometown…and the Sephiroth I once knew.
Empty eyes gazed at him, sending a chill down his spine. The warm pools of lifestream were gone now, leaving only cool pools of Mako that showed no mercy. His stare gazed into Cloud's own eyes. The stare was unbreakable for a moment.
"Mom…" he whispered, "…Tifa…my town—" he broke for a moment, unable to take the truth in. "Give it back…" he choked through gritted teeth. Sephiroth looked down at his blood trickling down the blade of the buster sword. When Cloud slowly unsheathed it, Sephiroth slumped a little in pain; he placed his hand over the leaking wound, watching tiny rivers of blood trickle over his fingers "I had so much respect for you…" the soldier whispered, forcing back tears. Sephiroth's eyes drifted from the falling rubies, locking with Cloud's. His eyes were full of rage, anger, and hate. "…I admired you…" he added, backing away slowly. Sephiroth's eyes lingered there for a moment longer, then drifted back to the blood seeping through his shirt and across his hand.
Cloud backed away, watching Sephiroth as he did. He stood in front of the door, his eyes almost over-filling with tears. The sword made a loud clash as it fell to the floor beside him. Cloud finally felt the tears roll down his cheek. He took his helmet off, wiping one away, and glanced back at the wounded man. He walked out, letting the helmet make a lingering thud that echoed through the room.
I regret it so much now...his empty eyes had been so different from the eyes that had been so warm and comforting the day before. But…I did what I had too…Zack and I both did…
Zack lay injured against the wall. Cloud looked from him, to the girl in the middle of the stairs. Just an innocent bystander massacred by Sephiroth's wrath. He walked down a few steps to her side. Tifa… She looked dead lying there in the middle of the stairs. His childhood friend—gone. He brushed the hair from her cheek. She stirred a little. She opened her eyes weakly; her breath shuttered. "Cloud, you…kept your promise," she said softly, smiling. "You came." Her smile faded quickly as her body tensed in pain. "I…I couldn't…"
He shushed her quietly, rubbing her cheek gently. He lifted her delicately, placing her weak body to the side of the stairs. She smiled weakly again, then flinched in pain. Cloud gripped her hand softly, gently rubbing the soft skin above her thumb gently.
"Cloud…thank you."
'Thank you.' Those were the last words I heard her say. I'd never said anything else to her—I hadn't said anything, really. I could only stare into her maroon eyes, watching them fill with tears. I'd always hated to see her like that—ever since we were young. I'd never really loved her…I just…thought of her as a sister—someone for me to take care of…even if she didn't notice.
And Sephiroth?
"Just like you." Cloud turned sharply from his lifeless friend to the silver haired man at the top of the steps. He carried the Masamune in one hand, and in the other…the head of Jenova. He walked briskly down the stairs, only pausing at the door to admire his trophy for a moment before walking through the doorway.
Cloud watched him, dumbfounded and clueless as to what to do.
"Cloud…" he heard Zack whisper faintly. "…Kill Sephiroth…"
Cloud hesitated, but nodded, and ran out, sword in hand. "Sephiroth!" he yelled, charging him.
Sephiroth turned, and in one swift movement pierced the blond's flesh with ease. He raised Cloud off the ground with the slender blade. "Don't…push…your luck," he said through gritted teeth.
Cloud shook his head slowly. "Whatever happens…don't…don't let me hurt you." The words stayed with him. "No…" he whispered. He gripped the blade firmly, struggling with Sephiroth as the blade sliced his hands a little. He felt his feet touch down again. Sephiroth's cold stare locked on to Clouds.
Sephiroth felt Cloud overpowering him. "…It can't be—" he said as his feet lifted a little. He slung in to the wall, hard and powerful; the blow dazed him a little. Cloud looked up weakly. A smile touched Sephiroth's lips. He said something—only a slur to Cloud's fading consciousness—as Sephiroth lunged for Jenova's head. He plunged downward, the bright Mako illuminating him almost angelically and reflecting in little shimmers of the tears that danced in the air behind him. Just before he faded away, a faint word slipped from the man's lips, falling inaudible on Cloud's ears.
I never really understood what he'd meant when he said "Just like you." But…I guess at the time it wasn't really important. "Whatever happens…don't…don't let me hurt you." What had he said as he fell? I could never really figure it out...I guess I'll never really know…
'And what I'd give to have it back…'
Comments:
Well there you have it: my first yaoi. Good for me. So, incase you couldn't figure out this was a flashback from Cloud. Yay for flashbacks! Another chapter will be up soon, but I'm afraid to announce it drags a little from here. The next couple of chapters are kind of slow, but it gets a little better in a later chapter, so try and stick with it! Promise I'll make it worth while By the way, the more reviews, the more inspiration, so let me know what you think and any suggestions you might have for me—I'd love to hear them!
Becca .
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I own no part of Final Fantasy or its characters—or Square Enix for that matter. If I did, you would know, because it would be to high of a rating for most of you to play without parental permission and the rating label would read "Yaoi/High Sexual Content" …though most of us wish it read that. I can only claim the dark ideas that spring from my mind into text.