Author's Note: This is my own pre-canon playspace, but I am beholden to perspectives I have developed in writing Claiming Kin (see AFF link in my profile), and I am indebted to Talon's Kin (Inuyasha) and Tai (InuPapa) for inspiration for aspects of my characterizations. Originally written for the LJ Community inupapasesst.
Warning: Inucest.
Tou-sama's Boy
Tou-sama says I'm just as much his son as Onii-san, but Onii-san doesn't agree. He came to the chambers I just moved into with Ka-chan soon after we moved in to "inspect" me. He made Ka-chan go out of the room. Once alone, he lifted me from the ground and sniffed me and dragged his fangs across my throat. Then he rubbed a claw across my cheek and said in a low voice that he could kill me, anytime he wished. I nodded, bowed. Yes, Onii-san. I understand, Onii-san. Tou-sama came in and took Onii-san by the hair. He growled and told Onii-san he may be heir, but there will be no disobedience in his kingdom. He must accept that I am his brother and treat me well. Onii-san did not bow or turn down his eyes. He said, "Yes, my Lord," but did not smell like obedience. As he left, his eyes burned into me and I looked down to show I am no threat. It is something I do a lot, and keeps others from picking on me, sometimes. Onii-san walked away, flowing like water, and I stared in amazement. His hair is so long and silky and his white hakama rustled softly and his fur trailed behind him. As I watched, I knew I loved Onii-san. I love him like bathing in cool streams and the taste of melon.
Tou-sama brought Ka-chan and me to his castle because her family made us leave. I am happy to be here but Ka-chan's eyes are still red. Tou-sama is Lord of the Western Lands and he tells Ka-chan he will protect me. He says that Ka-chan is not his mate but he will care for her. Tou-sama has a mate. She is Onii-san's Ka-chan, but I will not meet her. Servants come and bathe and oil and brush Ka-chan's hair while I watch and eat until my tummy is full. I can have whatever I want, Ka-chan too. But she still almost doesn't eat at all, even when I hold out berries to eat from my hand.
Tou-sama comes to take me to his chambers when it is dark, away from Ka-chan so she can rest and be ready for him when he returns. He tells her she must not cry, must be grateful and happy. I want Ka-chan to be happy too, so I go with Tou-sama, my little hand in his very big one. As we walk, I almost trip because his steps are so huge and long. He chuckled and smiles down at me, then lifts me into his arms. "My little one," he calls me, and presses his big mouth to mine. I can't breathe for a minute, but it doesn't feel bad. He tells me that all of me belongs to him and I nod. I'm not sure what it means, but I will do whatever Tou-sama says. He is Lord and Tou-sama and giant big and when you smell him you know you have to do whatever he says…and you want to. Then he rubs my ears as I look up at him and laughs with a rough, rumbly sound in his chest. "Who's my good boy?" he asks. "Me, Tou-sama," I say softly. Oh, I want to be Tou-sama's good boy. I want to belong.
Between our chambers and Tou-sama's is a courtyard, big and flower-smelling. I look up at the bright moon sliver. I remember how Onii-san's crescent moon looked on his forehead as he brought his face close to mine. I could smell his poison. I wanted to touch the moon like Ka-chan touches the hem of a monk's robes. They don't let me touch them. I wonder if someday Onii-san will let me.
"Does the moon belong to Onii-san?" I ask Tou-sama before I even think it. I get hot all over from shame. It is a stupid question and I don't want Tou-sama to laugh at me…or tell Onii-san what I said. He stops and tips my face up. His eyes are like mine and I feel maybe I am safe with Tou-sama. "The moon belongs to all inu, my Inuyasha," he says, nuzzling my throat. "And you are inu. Never forget that, and never allow others to tell you otherwise." He tips back his head and howls.
"Tou-sama," I whisper, awed.