Hey people :3. This is just a short story, I decided to make after Rotten Girl, Grotesque Romace, not gonna lie it interested me so I just figured "What the hell! Let do this!" So if you don't like it then oh well but to those who will please enjoy! ^^ By the way just so no one gets confused I wanted to put in some parts where it just sounds like Miku, the main character, is talking directly at you sometimes, I saw it in some books and I thought it'd be interesting to do but if its not good I'll cut it out in the next chapter. I'm gonna try to make this at least a couple chapters long so it might not be as interesting as first though but if you read it then thank you! c:
I'm in love. So very much so. He's everything I dream about, everything I'd ever truly want in this world, he has the darkest blue hair imaginable, deep clear blue eyes and that graceful smile. . . its all so beautiful to me, he was made to be with me, just as I was made to love him so deeply as I do. Being me, Miku Hatsune, my life was never normal. I've been the strange one in my family, my parents are concerned I have a. . . problem. Cause you see. . my room is all but dedicated to that one boy. Kaito Shion. His pictures are all over my wall, I've created little plushies of him and I know absolutely everything there is to know about him.
I know its so fast, so sudden of me to be like this but since I was just a child, when I first met those intense beautiful blue eyes, I wanted no one other than him, no one could satisfy me other than him that I knew, there would be no one I'd lust after other than him, he was my whole entire world, I saw no other boy or man other than him. He's my everything. He's my lover, my boyfriend, my sweet darling, my baby, my best friend, my complete everything that there could be, he fit into the catogory for me. I don't want anyone to have him. I don't want other girls to put their disgusting hands on him and taint his purity, the only hands that belong on him are mine. He's mine! And one day. . . just one day. . . he'll be so in love with me that he'll understand. . . he'll understand my shrine to him in my bedroom. . . he'll understand how I know everythig about him, he'll understand everything about ME once he falls in love with me. But.
I'm getting a little to far ahead in this story aren't I? I mean I could sit around speak talk and write in my journal for you or all eyes to see, but I'm just getting ahead of myself! Its best if you knew what happened first, wouldn't that be at least a little curtious of me? I couldsmile and gush, gush, gush about him being my love, my life, my light in the darkness, or you could know the true story of what's happened. . . Maybe that's what's best right now. So, ladies and gentlemen, sit back, get cozy, turn your lights off wherthet this shall disturb you or not and whether your turn your lights off or not, but just settle in cause this is where MY beginning and my untimely end had occured now. . .where to start to catch you up to speed? Ah yes I know the perfect place to start. . . But please keep in mind, that this is only his first girlfriend, you will shortly know of his second girlfriend but this was quite the perfect place and scene to start from.
Five Years Ago.
"Miku!" He calls out loudly, his footsteps loud against the cement and I feel my cheeks heat up gently and I fight the urge to sigh like a little girl and shut my eyes as his voice winded around me, but I forced myself to turn around and flashed him the best smile I could.
"Hey Kaito!" I say loud enough but not so I'm yelling as I watch him run towards me. I was surprised when he called me out here, usually our parents set things up, eleven year olds weren't really allowed to be going outside. Especially when the sun was going down.
"Miku," He says between pants as he stands in front of me, his breath billowing out in white puffs, the winter had come so suddenly and so fast. "We need to talk."
"Sure what do you wanna talk about? We could go to the park and sit to tal-"
"Miku I don't think I should hang out with you."
Those words. . they shattered me entirely. My entire being seemed to crumble. I turned my wide eyes on him but he just stared down at the ground, his normally cherub face was deep and serious, his blue eyes troubled. I felt tears press against my eyes. Truly he was joking. Right? So I laughed. I laughed long and loud enough he snapped his eyes up to me. When I stopped I wagged a gloved finger at him grinning the best I could.
"Funny Kaito, very funny. I didn't know you could be so funny, now come on lets go to the park." I say reaching for his hand grabbing it but he shocked me again by yanking his hand away and I started, staring at his hand as tears welled up in my eyes making things wavy as I looked into his face seeing nothing but sadness but that same intense seriousness. "Kaito?" I whisper a few tears rolling down.
"I'm sorry, Miku. I can't hang out with you anymore my. . . my parents think your not a good influence on me. I'm sorry. I am so sorry Miku you'll never understand how sorry I am." He says turning around his breath still coming out in puffs.
"Kaito please!" I suddenly yell making him still." Please don't do this to me Kaito, why, after so long of denying your parents words of advice would you. . .would you listen to them THIS TIME?!" I snap out sounding the most angry he probably ever heard me being as tears slid down, burning my cold skin.
"Miku. I'm sorry." He says again like a broken record and I suddenly felt the impulse to strangle him, strangle until his old self came back, until he stopped apologizing and stop hurting me. He began walking away. KAITO was walking away from me and my eyes widen as more tears slid down quickly.
"Kaito! Kaito! Kaito! Kai-" I scream a loud sob breaking through as I fell to my knees but he continued walking as I continued screaming his name like I was stuck on repeat. "-to! Kaito! KAITO!" I screech my tears hitting the ground as I screamed his name, long after he was gone and I got up an unknown feeling coiling tight in me and I began running home.
My feet pounded against the ground, like I was punishing it, I slammed my feet so hard against the ground my legs hurt with each hard stamp my feet made. I ran to my house sobing quiter, so my parents wouldn't hear me, and I ran upstairs, after kicking my boots off leaving them directly in the path of others but I didn't give to hells about it. I wanted my room. I wanted my sanctuary. I wanted my Kaito. I got to my room running in and I slammed the door hard sobbing much loud a hand pressed to my mouth. I ran to my bed picking up my homemade, Kaito plushie and held it to my chest, rubbing the silky blue yarn I used for hair as I sobbed, rocking back and forth, as I held him to my chest tightly.
It took my hours just to calm down and for the tears to stop, I wanted to hold the real Kaito, the one who said over and over our entire child hood that he loved me. But he must not have meant it if he was going along with his parent's wishes now. If only they were gone, if only he could see what he truly means to me. I was BORN for him! Why can't he see?! Why, why, why, why, why,why, why, why WHY?! I did something I didn't expect. My body, seeming to take on its own life, began punching and hitting the plushie of him in my arms as my tears started up again and I glared. No.
No more negative thoughts because. . . He is mine. I got up walking to my bathroom, I slammed the door with my Kaito plushie to my hest kissing his head apologizing silenetly to it. I stared in the mirror however. A demented smile had twisted over my lips, a crazy glint sparkled in my eyes as I stroked my plushie's hair, yes this is truly how I was, this was the side of me I refused to show Kaito or anyone. I was indeed born to love him, nothing could stop that and it was my truest feeling.
"Miku! You home honey?" My mother calls and I felt irritation flash through me, so deep and angry it surprised the innocent part of me, of course I was home, I certainly wasn't silent coming into the house.
"Yes I am home Mother!" I call out loudly as I walk out of my bathroom shoving away the demented smile, the craziness that clouded my mind and called back to her through my bedroom door.
"Can you come downstairs for a second? I think we should talk." She calls up the stairs once again and I opened my bedroom door, not bothering to put my Kaito plushie down and walked downstairs slowly holding the beautiful thing to my chest tightly, so tight I expected the stitches to explode but they didn't and I reached the bottom of my stairs when I realized my mother was crying and my father looked like someone punched him in the gut, his face was so white.
"Mother? Father? What's wrong?" I ask tilting my head causing my short hair to tickle my shoulder gently. I always kept my hair short, being eleven I had no expectations to take care of such long hair and Kaito told me, he indeed liked it short.
"Miku. . .I am sorry for what we've done but. . .just keep in mind we do this with heavy hearts." My father says, his voice thick and gravelly like he too had been crying earlier.
"What have you done?" I ask innocently though my mind screamed they did something, something so horrid that it'd change my favor in time, that it would ruin everything in my life.
"M-Miku, we. . . we have decided for the best for you. . . and for this family that you go to get. . . professional help." My mother whispers through her tears and everything in me froze. Professional help? They can't be. . .
"Miku we've. . .We've called the psychiatric ward, they said they'll take you in right away but you will be put in a cottage type place, with other teenagers your age." My father continues for her and he clears his throat a couple times and I dropped my plushie of Kaito my eyes wide, as disbelief circled through my body. I knew this time that they weren't joking like I had thought Kaito was earlier. How could three of the most important people I know and hold dear to me, hurt me in this horrid way?
"Why?! Why would you do this!? I'm perfectly fine!" I scream at them instead of speaking out calmly and tears began sliding down my cheeks again. "WHY!?" I screech staring at them my eyes must've hold an insane look for my parents both paled so badly they reminded me of paper. They were afraid of me? "Why are you afraid of me?" I say softer my head bowing so my hair covered my face slightly as I stared at the floor.
"Miku we're not afraid OF you we're afraid FOR you. We don't want to do this to you we really don't." My Mother says softly and I clenched my hands turning them into fists as I struggled to contain myself, to keep calm as an effort to keep from proving them right, that I did indeed need mental help. But I didn't I was fine.
"When am I going?" I say in that same soft tone keeping my head bowed and I heard them shift.I crouched down gently, almost religiously, picked up my mini version of Kaito, and held it tightly to my chest once again.
"Tonight." My father answers making my heart scream and my mind to cloud deeply with insanity. I wanted to strangle them just as much as I wanted to strangle Kaito earlier, for hurting me this way but I kept my calm. "You should. . . You should go pack anything you need."
"Alright." I nod turning away and went up the stairs much slower clenching the railing tight enough it seemed to make those strange groaning noises would makes before collapsing. I went up to my room and grabbed a teal colored suitcase. I shoved many shirts, bras, pants and other things within it but instead of shoving it in, I zipped up the suitcase and held my plushie of Kaito tightly to my chest as I walked downstairs went to the living room sitting down, then looked out the window as my parents talked to the woman who had come to get me and I felt something in my chest tightening, tightening, tightening until I felt I couldn't breath and I squeezed the plushie tightly as my eyes widened and my breath came in short panicked breathes and I thought faintly of screaming out. Kaito. He was with some girl. . . a damn girl! I felt my teeth grind and clench together tightly and my lips pull back in what I thought, would be a completely disgusted look and I breathed in sharp short breathes, I started as he leaned in and kissed the girl. I felt like running out there and tearing that girls head off her body, NO ONE TOUCHES HIM BUT ME! I wanted to screech and shriek out as my eyes narrowed and I twitched in several places, my body feeling like it wanted to move on its own and the scream was stuck in my throat as my eyes widened as far as they would go as I watched him. Why?!
"Miku?" My mother says a bit hesitantly and I snapped out of it, the tight coiling feeling went away along with my dsigusted look and by the time I unclenched my jaw it was aching and my teeth felt like they were going to shatter. "Come on honey. I love you don't forget this but. . . its what's best, I hope you can forgive us."
"I know Mother, and I will forgive you, if this works if what you feel is best as a parent then I shall forgive you when I come home." I lie out right knowing my mother couldn't tell the difference but there truly was one thing I couldn't lie about when I spoke again. "And I love you too Mom." I say softly and I saw tears welling up and sliding down as I called her 'Mom' for I hadn't in the longest time and she grabbed me, pulling my tight to her chest and her tears cascaded down into my hair disappearing right away within the aqua depths of my hair and I pulled away. I walked outside after my father had held me tight.
"We'll see you soon sweetheart!" My father calls out as I get within the car. I stared over at Kaito's house seeing the lights were on in his room, I saw the distinct forms of TWO people and my teeth grineded and clenched once again, long after we drove away and all the while, I thought about that girl. She had long dark hair, much different than mine, her eyes a boring brown to me and her face was a bit pretty and I wondered faintly what Kaito saw in the girl, I clenched the plushie to my chest tightly and the world got wavy and shimmery as tears welled up in my eyes for the third time that night when a thought crashed through my mind. 'That girl. Its HER falt Kaito said we couldn't hang out anymore! It's all her fault! I know it is! Damn her. . . I'll just have to take care of her when I come home.' I thought both angrily but got a bit cheery, almost smug by the end of the thought and I grinned to myself as I kissed the top of the plushies head staring at the world zooming past me. Oh yes, that girl will get what they deserve but just the girl, she deserves it more than Kaito, he isn't doing this intentionally that witch just decided to sink her claws in him, but she'll get a stab of reality when her nails are pulled forcefully by ME. Cause no matter what she says I can always prove to Kaito how much I love him. The thoughts circled around my mind and I closed my eyes gently grinning to myself, as we drove all the way to the hospital.'Oh sweet Kaito, you don't know what you've started do you?' I think to myself and allowed myself to sleep, at least for most of this ride and I lost the smile as I slept. Tomorrow and the weeks following were going to be the hardest of my life but I'll get through it. I hope.