Dreaming Tonight
Disclaimer: Let's ask you 21 (or less) questions ... IS ANGEL AND BUFFY TOGETHER? DID ANGEL DUMP NINA WHEN HE FIRST MET HER? DID BUFFY WAIT FOR ANGEL (no Immortal)? IS ANGEL ENDING? If the answer to all those questions is 'yes' den that means I don't own anything. They all belong to the God/Devil, Joss Whedon. This song, EVERYTIME, belongs to Britney Spears.
A/N: MAJOR ANGST WARNING. If you thought 'Life Without You' was bad, then this story is much sadder ... MUCH!.
Key: song lyrics are in italics. flashback is also in italics (i think you can tell the difference l0l), and the bolD and italics are Buffy's dreams
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Buffy sat, with her legs pulled up below her chin. Tears rolled down her face as she sifted through the box in front of her. Pulling out a picture, she traced the features of the man in it ... Angel. He was a stranger now, with new friends, a new life, and a new purpose in life ... to help the helpless. Putting the picture back into the box, Buffy pushed the box back under her bed, and settled in bed. Wiping away the remaining tears, she closed her eyes.
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Buffy stood on top of the skyscraper. Stepping towards the edge, she looked down. Closing her eyes, and whispering a quiet sorry to her friends, she leaned over, and fell down gracefully. Just before she reached the ground, Angel's face appeared, looking at her with pain clearly written in his eyes ... pain that she had caused with her words. She hit the ground, and the world went black, except for Angel's face, looking at her sadly, and full or regret.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
"Angel?" Buffy got out of bed, and walked towards the shadowy figure standing at the corner of her room.
"Buffy," the figure whispered.
"Angel, what's wrong?" Buffy got closer, almost within touching distance.
"Nothing." Angel stepped forward from the shadows and smiled at her. Buffy smiled back, looking up at him. She reached him, about to hug him with relief, when she noticed a figure behind Angel.
"Hey B." Faith stepped out, laughing Angel bent his head down and kissed her on the lips, "How's life?"
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Buffy fidgeted, whimpering, silently crying in her sleep.
The sunset was beautiful as she stepped onto the beach. Walking towards the shoreline, Buffy turned towards the water. Feeling the presence behind her, she leaned back into the broad back and snuggled into the strong arms that encircled her waist.
"How'd you find me here?" Buffy asked, looking up at Angel.
"If I was blind I would see you." Buffy covers his hand with hers, and closes her eyes.
"Stay with me?"
"Forever, that's the whole point," Angel lowered his head to whisper into her ear, "Not even if you kill me, with the sword, or with your words. Not even if you move on with your life. Not ever."
Buffy turned to look at him, her smile disappearing, as before her eyes, Angel slowly faded out of sight.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh....
"I have someone in my life now," Angel looked away from her, but didn't move, "That I love," Buffy saw Angel swallow hard, "It's now what you and I had," she paused, telling herself mentally that she needed to cut of all ties with Angel, and this would be the best way to do it, "It's very new." Buffy steps in closer, with a renewed energy, "You know what makes it new? I trust him ... I know him."
Angel let out a sharp breath, "That's great. It's nice you moved on." He looked at her angrily, his voice rising, "But I can't. You found someone new but I'm not allowed to, remember?" He steps in closer, "I see you again and it cuts me up inside and the person I share that with is me! You don't know me anymore. So don't come here with your great new life and expect me to do things your way. GO HOME!"
Buffy looked at him for a moment, wanting to say sorry, but she couldn't bring herself to. Picking up her jacket, she turned to leave, while Angel leaned against the wall. "See? Faith wins again." "Go" Angel said harshly, without looking at Buffy. Buffy walked out slowly without looking back.
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
"I love you baby," Angel whispered softly into her ear, as he walked away, disappearing into the fog.
"NOO! Angel! Don't go! I need you, please come back!" A ringing filled her ears, and ..."
Ring! Ring! Buffy bolted from her bed. She turned to look at the time, 7:35. Sighing, she picked up the phone.
"Hello?"
"Buffy. It's me, Riley." Buffy sighed, "What happened yesterday night. You just, disappeared." Buffy looked at the mirror, her tear-streaked face mocking her as she answered, "Nothing Ry, I jus got ... tired."
"Tired ..." Riley repeated.
"Yes. Riley ..."
"Buffy," Riley interrupted, "I just wanted to tell you how much I love you."
"Me too. Listen I have to go, bye." Buffy hung up before Riley could answer. A new batch of tears started flowing.
She wanted to love Riley back, she really did. But it was hard, when she belonged to someone else, someone who would always be the owner of her heart ... Angel. No matter how much she tried to fool herself, she and Angel would never be over. Never.
After all...
After all...
A/N: ducks I DESERVE THE TOMATO THROWING, OR W/E YOU GUYS ARE THROWING AT ME. But I just ... I needed therapy to 'Sanctuary' and the dreams and other stuff just came out. I hope you guys don't hate me forever. Please R&R. I will even accept flames, as long as you don't stop reading my stories. I promise I will write a B/A positive happy story soon.