As soon as I walked out of my landscape I could hear them laughing. The Dauntless leaders were all huddled together with the wires still hooked up that allowed them to see my fears. I had a feeling they weren't laughing about the crows. I could care less about them but then I saw Tobias. He was removing the wires and trying not to look at any of them. It was clear even from where I stood that they were giving him a hard time. He looked up and caught my eye and then took off. I could tell that he wanted to be alone but there was no way I would be able to give that to him.

Walking up to his door had never felt so frightening. My heart beat was racing and my palms were starting to sweat. I know it must have embarrassed him but was he mad at me? I couldn't control my fears anymore than he could and I did not see that one coming. However when it came up I realized I was utterly afraid of being completely intimate with Tobias. But what right did he have to run off without talking to me? It was my fear that all the leaders saw, it was me they were laughing at, not him! The more I thought about the angrier I got. At least now I had the courage to knock on the door.

"Tobias open up, it's me!"

The door opened slowly until his entire body clad in a tight black shirt and jeans was in view. Somehow looking at him always caused me to lose my train of thought. After what felt like hours Tobias spoke up, "Well are you going to come in or are you just going to stand there and stare?"

I was too upset to control my emotions so all my thoughts just came pouring out, "Look I'm sorry you had to see that and I'm even more sorry that the others saw it but you know as well as I do that I had no control over that so I really don't think it's fair for you to be mad at me!"

"Wait you think I'm mad at you?"

"Well yeah, you could barely even look at me and then you just took off. What else am I supposed to think?"

He started to move closer to me with his dark blue eyes locked with mine.

"Tris I am not mad at you! I just wanted to be alone for a while… I wanted to come in here and think of the times we've been close to try and figure out what I've done that would make you afraid of being with me. I never want you to feel like I'd do something you aren't ready for. I love you, the last thing I want to do is hurt you."

He hooked his finger behind my ear and stoked my cheek with his thumb. Even the smallest amount of contact caused something to stir deep inside my body. A misunderstanding that's all this was. I can't believe I got so worked up and now with his face so close to mine I was starting to forget the reason I was even there at all. Wait! He thought he did something to cause this fear? I took a step back to clear my head. He looked confused at the break in contact so I grabbed his strong hands in mine.

"Tobias, you did nothing wrong. My fear isn't actually of you in the sense that I'm afraid you'll pressure me into it. I'm more afraid of intimacy itself. You know just as well as I do how limited our amount of contact is with people in Abnegation and I'm just afraid that I won't be any good at it or it will change things between us."

A small smirk started to form on his lips, "Tris nothing physical between us could ever be bad. I think people only dream of the kind of chemistry and passion we have but I'm nervous too. I just want you to know that nothing will ever change how much I love you."

His hands moved from mine and started trailing slowly up my arms until they were on my neck and in my hair. Chill bumbs popped up all over my arms and my eyelids started to feel heavy. Then he pulled my chin up and claimed my mouth with his own. His tongue ran along my lips seeking entrance and I happily obliged as he took the kiss further. I brought my hand to his chest to find that our heartbeats were equally rapid. My hands then found his soft hair as I brought him as close to me as possible. He started to walk us back a bit until my back was pressed firmly against the wall. He then started to break the kiss and as his lips were leaving mine I nipped at the bottom one which was greeted with a low groan. He placed his forehead on mine, I tried to look in his eyes but they were shut and his breathing was heavy.

"Tris, I think we need to cool down for just a miunte."

"The last thing I want right now is to cool down." I said as I ran my hand along the hem of his pants.

He opened his eyes then and the desire there was evident, which I'm sure matched my own.

"Are you sure?"

"God, yes." He moved his hands to my hips and guided me to the bed, his eyes never leaving mine.