I know this mentions no names, so really it could be anyone you want, but it's supposed to be a Hermionie/Harry one, I wrote this a while ago when I was feeling a bit like this myself, I found it yesterday, pretty unfortunate timing actually seeing as though I was talking to the guy in question and he was saying how much he missed the other girl, but the pains all but gone now, so I just want to say to anyone feeling like this, or in fact to anyone who has loved and lost, time is a great healer.
How can you understand?
You say you understand how I feel, how can you?
Do you know what it's like to spend every night dreaming a dream that will never come true?
Do you feel how I feel, when I see you with your arms wrapped around her, wrapped around a girl thats so much prettier than me? The girl that you all want, my closest friend and biggest rival?
Do you see my eyes fill up with tears when you tell me that you love me, because you will never know how much it tears me up inside knowing that you will never love me with the same passion I love you?
How can you know what it's like to be so angry at her for stealing you, but to have to talk and laugh with her, all the while wanting to rip out her heart like she did to me?
Do you have any idea the range of emotions I felt when the two of you broke up, from the greatest relief that I stood a chance again, uncontrolable anger that she had dared to hurt you, to the deepest misery at knowing that you were somewhere, alone and brokenhearted?
Do you know what it's like every time I close my eyes I see you smiling at me, just out of reach?
Do you realise that when you're around time stands still for me, but I know that you're there counting the seconds until you can see her again?
Can't you tell that when you leave my side it takes every ounce of willpower and self contol in my body not to get up and follow you?
How do you think it feels to know I can't break down in tears around you, because you'll come and put your arms around me and ask me what is wrong, and I never could lie to you?
How can you understand that I would sacrifice everything I own, my very existance to keep you out of harm?
Do you see that I am never true anymore? I laugh and I joke but there are tears behind this smile.
Can't you see that you take my heart with you wherever you go?
Do you know what it's like to be driven half crazy around you, and be only half human when i'm not?
Do you know how hard my heart hammers against my chest when you hug me?
How can you understand that I see no flaw in you, you are perfect in my eyes?
Do you know how hard it is helping you through the loss of a old love, and smiling when you find a new one, each time hoping it will be me, but knowing that to you, I am just a friend that picks you up when you're down and laughs along with you when you are up?
Do you realise that I would do anything I could for you and expect nothing in return?
Do you know how many tears I have cried for you? I wish I did
Can you remember, like I do the laughs we've had together? Do you even want to?
Do you know that I would take a million curses for you? Would you even stop one for me?
Do you know what it's like to be unable to tell anyone how I feel because my closest friends are the very people I must keep it from?
How can you understand that i'm in love with you? And when can I accept that you're in love with her?
Do you? No? Then leave me be.