(did you want this?)
Yes, you always did. You were never good enough anyway. Never strong enough, so distraught, always striving, always questioning. Begging to be put back in your place, defending the only one who dared call a disgusting troll like yourself a moirail. The only one who didn't cringe against your touch or scream when you accidentally cracked one of her bones - merely whimpered and smiled and assured herself that it was just an accident on her part. That stupid little furball. But you loved her regardless, just as she always loved you.
(you didn't want to die alone, did you?)
(didn't want her to die trying to avenge you?)
(such a worthless highblood if i ever saw one.)
You know that's wrong, of course. You had been foolish. Thinking that just because you were a blueblood he might not come after you - he might show some mercy. Foolish, foolish, foolish. You know that you liked it when he hurt you. Because god it just hurt so good and never before had you felt such... such exquisite pain or suffering. The flooding of your own protein shoot with your own unworthy blood. You had relished in it. Moaned in it.
(you know watching that broke her.)
(she all up and broke all her motherfucking hearts but she couldn't look away and she couldn't unhear the disgusting noises her moirail was making.)
(she knew she had to try though)
(even when you finished she was thinking oh my god equius no)
(no)
(she couldn't believe it and so she kept thinking over and over again no no no no no no because someone so strong could not be defeated so quickly)
She loved you and trusted you and she knew all your darkest secrets and desires just as you knew hers. You knew you loved her as well. best meowrails furrever!
Yes
Forever
(so worthless is the one who breaks his promises, motherfucker.)
(worthless is the one who does not kneel.)
(you know her mind was screaming when she saw us, saw you fall over, and she knew your hearts were withering and shriveling all up on themselves. her mind was screaming no!)
(no no no no no no)
No