Hi! This is my first fan fiction story so I would love any reviews the good and the bad…. other than that I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I do not own supernatural nor do I own Sam, Dean or the Impala.
Warning: It may get a little darker as the story progresses
Summary: Dean always said people were just crazy. What will happen when Sam is kidnapped and made to do thing the boys couldn't even imagine? Can Dean save Sam before he succumbs to the darkness?
Chapter One -
I've lived this life before
I'm trying to be somebody,
I'm not trying to be somebody else.
This life is mine I'm living,
Don't you know me I won't ever let you down?
Be Somebody - Three Doors Down
"Sammy, I'm not going to have this argument with you again!" Dean raved "We've been over this a thousand times you are not going to turn into something evil, besides you've got your sexy, charming older brother to look out for you…. for now at least."
"Dean, you know that's not funny you're not going to die, how can you say that I'm all 'me' when you don't know for sure." Sam retorted. "Besides you don't know what the supernatural world has in store for me, I mean what, am I supposed to lead some army? Am I still going to go dark side?
Dean huffed in annoyance. It seems that no matter how hard he tried he couldn't convince Sam that he wasn't evil and quite frankly he was sick of having this same argument, it was like living in a perpetual state of deja' vu and he was tired of it.
So he did the only thing he could think of to get Sam off his back.
"Listen Sammy, Yellow Eyes is dead; your visions are gone and no supernatural army is coming to claim you so I figure as long as I'm here, you, my brother have nothing to worry about, except what you're planning on getting us for dinner cause I'm starving!" Dean hoped that would satisfy Sam until tomorrow or whenever he felt like having another Sammy-whump-fest.
Sam couldn't believe Dean. Every time he tried to engage in a serious conversation about something he was shut down or laughed off. Every time he tried talking about the deal with the crossroads demon, Dean brushed him off like it wasn't important. And every time he tried talking to Dean about the whole 'him being evil thing' Dean totally shut him down. How could he be there for Dean and save him if he couldn't even talk to him about the things that mattered most?
He couldn't do this much longer; pretend that he wasn't crumbling under the weight of the crossroad deal. He couldn't pretend that he was sleeping at night or pretend he wasn't having nightmares. So he just shrugged at Dean, picked up his coat and walked out of the motel room to cool off and get Dean some food.
Dean didn't want things to be like this between him and Sam but lately they just couldn't agree on anything. So when Sam didn't argue back to Dean's earlier crack about food he was a little concerned. Then when Sam had picked up his coat and headed for the door he became officially worried.
Sam didn't think Dean knew but he did. He knew that Sam wasn't sleeping at night constantly plagued with nightmares. He knew that the kid looked like anorexic death warmed up all of the time because he no longer ate. He would fix this, after all he was the big brother, it was his job to look after Sammy and if it was the last thing he did he would fix Sam and make sure he was happy before the hell hounds came to claim him.
Now that Sam thought about it Dean was an asshole. There was no other word for a person who didn't let their brother drive their car when it was freezing outside. He rubbed his hands together before pulling his jacket tighter around him in a futile attempt to keep the cold at bay.
At least there weren't many people around because of the weather, because he could not deal with anyone right now; he was tired and freezing.
He was so tired and freezing that he didn't notice the streets grow darker, he didn't notice the van which had been trailing him nor did he notice when it came to an abrupt halt behind him. The last thing he remembered before the putrid stench of chloroform was thinking that maybe he wouldn't even be around to save Dean from his deal, after that it went black.
I will update ASAP…. Please review I'm an amateur!