hey guys. im new to greys anatomy but i absolutely love it. this is my first greys and same sex story, but i hope you like it. all mistakes are my own so if you find any please let me know and i will change them.

disclaimer: i dont own grey's anatomy, but if i did the possiblities.

so heres the chapter guys just let me know what you think, and if i should continue with it.

I shut the door to the ambulance once I saw that Ruby was safely inside; I watched and waited till the ambulance had driven away before turning towards Callie. We both just stared at each other. Looking into her eyes brought back the memories of the day, I see Callie raise her eyebrow at me in question, bringing me out of my daydream, shaking my head I begin to say.

'I'm going to go see if any of the kids need help finding their parents.' Turning away from her I start to walk back into the hospital, before her voice makes me turn back around.

'People died. People are dead. I... I don't want to have kids, if it means I can't be with you.' I could see the hurt and honesty in her eyes. I can't make her give up on her biggest dream, not when I can give the one thing she so desperately wants. Walking towards her I say.

'No... No.' finally standing in front of her again I continue.

'We'll have kids; we'll have all kinds of kids. And I always thought that I wasn't cut out to be a mom. But you'll be a great mom; you'll be an amazing mom. And... I love you so much, and I can't live without you and are ten kids-' before I can say anymore she crashes her lips on mine. I feel her hands come up to my face, getting out of the initial shock that the sudden kiss had on me, I start to kiss her back, bringing my hands to rest on her arms. The kiss lasted no more than five seconds, oh yes I counted the seconds, before both of us pulled apart at the same time, and looked into each other's eyes. I could see so much in her eyes, love and hurt, being just some. She grabbed a hold of my hands squeezing them. I smiled up at her showing her the love I had for her.

'I think we should go back to the apartment. We need to talk.' She said while letting go of one of my hands, I couldn't find the right words to say, so I just nodded my head and let her lead me back into the hospital. Making a quick stop to the locker room, we grabbed our stuff out of them and then headed out of the hospital.

We walked to Callie's house in silent; so many things were going through my head, but the main thought was the argument we had just before we went into the exam room to take Ruby's appendix out. I can't believe I said that I didn't trust her; she is the only person I trust. I've had some many people abuse my trust, that I just took it all out on her. I was brought out of my thoughts by Callie saying my name. I shook my head slightly before giving her a nervous smile, Callie returned the smile, and motioned me into her living room.

Walking back into this room again made my nerves rocket, and I clasped my hands together. Callie most of seen how nervous I was, as the next thing I know she pulling my hands apart, and dragging me over to the couch. Sitting down on the couch Callie kept hold of one of my hands. Lifting her gaze from my hands she stared into my eyes. I could always get lost in those soft brown eyes, and now wasn't any different than before. I must have been staring for too long, because when I looked at her lips, she had her trade mark smirk on her face. Blushing slightly I looked down at my lap, trying to hide it. I feel Callie's finger lift my chin so that I am looking at her.

'Hey, what's going on in that pretty blonde head of yours? Talk to me Ari.' I could feel the blush creeping up my neck, god it's been so long since she said my nickname. I smile slightly at her before saying.

'Ok. Just remember that I do love you.' I she her smile at my words, and she gives me a nod of the head to tell me to continue. Taking both her hands in mine I return the smile and looking down at our joined hands, before continuing.

'Well I was thinking about today. I was thinking about all the nasty things I said to you, and the worst one of all was how I said that I didn't trust you. I can never forgive myself for saying that. Of course I trust you. I trust you with all my heart.' I can feel the tears in the back of my eyes, and I take a deep breath trying to keep them at bay. As I look up into Calliope's I see she has tears as well. Letting go of one of her hands, I rest it on her cheek while running my finger over it. Just as I'm about to continue, Callie speaks first.

'You're not the only one. I gave you the cold shoulder all day, when you were just trying to be civil to me at work. And I didn't mean it when I said that I hated your guts. Because I don't, I love you, I just didn't want you to think that I was forcing you into doing something that you didn't want.' There was some much honesty in her eyes that I didn't know what to do or say, so I just went with my instincts and spoke from the heart.

'Hey don't worry about it, we were both mad and saying stuff we didn't mean to hurt each other. But from now on we have to talk to each other properly, no holding stuff back until we feel the need to take it out on each other. Can we promise to do that?' Callie just seemed to sit there forever, I tried to read the emotions on her face but it was blank. What seemed like hours, but was probably only a few seconds, before I see a smile spread across her face, and she leans forward and gives me a kiss. I didn't even have time to respond when I felt her lean back and say.

'Of course I can promise that. So what you're saying is that we should just start over again, but without the nervousness of the first date and stuff.' I give her the biggest smile I could give her before nodding my head and leaning forward once again to give her the most breathtaking kiss I could give her. It didn't take long for us to deepen the kiss, I could feel her hands playing with the hem of my shirt, while mine found there place in her soft brown hair. I could never get tired of this but if I don't stop it now, I won't ever want to stop it, and we need to finish the conversation before this happens. I reluctantly pull back and I hear a soft moan come from her, this puts a smile to my face. I move my hand from her hair to rest gently on her thighs. Once I know that she is paying attention I say.

'As much fun as this is, and you have no idea how much I want to continue this' lifting my arm to gesture between us,

'I think we still have a few things to get sorted.' Waiting for her to nod her head I continue.

'I really hope you know that I love you, more than I have ever loved anyone. And if you're up for it I would really love for us to give it another try.' Waiting for Callie to answer was probably the third worst thing in the world, the first being my brother dying, and the second being walking away from her the last time. When she finally did answer I released the breath I didn't even know that I was holding.

'That was probably the stupidest question you have ever asked, no offence; of course I want to give us another shot. But did you really mean it when you said we would have kids.'

'No offence taking. And yes of course I mean it. I've come to realise that if I want to be with you, that you shouldn't be the only one who changes in this relationship. And I am super ready to take a chance with you. If you will still have me of course.' Callie didn't say anything, she wrapped her arms around me, and kissed me so hard, I smiled into the kiss. Once she pulled back the only thing I was able to say was.

'Awesome.'