Kensi walked back into the mission, her eyes still welting with tears. Sam and Callen were standing by their desks continuing to bicker about Sam's ability to carry out the rescue of Mosley's son. Both men looked up and quickly became quiet upon seeing Kensi's distraught face.
"You ok" Sam asked with a brotherly love tone.
"Perfect" She coldly replied.
The men knew she was unlikely to express her feelings, but could tell she was far from perfect. "Kens," Callen started. "I'm fine," she interrupted his concern.
Just then Nell came down from ops, "wheels up in 40," she said ushering the three to grab their go bags and head out. "Come home safe" Nell whispered.
Sitting on the plane, tears began to well up in her eyes again, as she continued to fight them back, just wishing her partner was there to have her back. "Why did I say the things I did, tonight of all nights" she began thinking. "Why did he think I didn't want to have kids, I only meant what if we couldn't. What if I sustained too much damage from the helicopter crash?" She shook her head attempting to rid herself of the thoughts that were consuming her. "I can't worry now, I have a mission to complete!" Just then the the plane came to a screeching halt. "Looks like Feds," Callen stated. "Hetty" Sam replied. Just then the shaggy haired man exited the town car and ran his hands through his hair. "It's Deeks." Callen said with a tone of relief. Kensi began to feel a knot in her stomach, still fighting back the tears, she's unsure if it's relief or fear she feels more. She had no idea where they even stood right now. "Why is he here?" She thought, even though a wave of security came over her that he'd be there beside her for this mission, just as he had many times before.
The plane ride was unfamiliarly cold. Every now and then they would catch each other looking at the other, then quickly turn away. She couldn't help but wonder what he was thinking. She tried to talk to him when he first got on the plane. "I'm still your partner...at least one last time." Replayed in her head. Were they really over as partners at work and in life when they returned home? If they returned home. She knew this mission was dangerous. She knew he didn't want to be there, yet he was. She sighed quietly and laid her head back for the remainder of the flight, wondering how they would survive this.
"You haven't said much since we got here," she said in a questioning way as they began walking to their hotel room to meet Callen and Sam.
"There's nothing to talk about," Deeks replied.
"No?" Kensi stated, questioning his response.
"Look, I just want to get this kid and get the hell out of here," he replied.
"Then what?" She nervously asked fearing the words he would return.
"Honestly," he began,"I have no idea"
Sam and Callen were waiting by their rooms as they walked up. Once inside, Kensi and Deeks room, they discussed the possibility of Hidoko being killed and the plan to have Kensi lure Derrick out of the property with horse back riding lessons.
"I'll go talk to Turk," Callen said as he headed towards the door,"Sam get bandaged up, it's gonna be a long day!"
Sam rolled his eyes and nodded at Deeks and Kensi. After the two men left the hotel room, a sudden wave of mixed emotions ran through Kensi. She used to be so good at hiding her emotions, but not from him, not anymore. His eyes of blue seas met with her mismatched brown ones. "I think I'll take a shower," her voice said shakily as she fought back the tears. His heart sunk knowing he was causing her this angst. He hated seeing her like this and knowing he caused the pain was killing him inside. He laid down on the bed and stared up at the ceiling. "How the hell did we get here?" He pondered. Suddenly his thoughts were interrupted by the sounds of a heart wrenching sob through the sounds of running water. The pain in his chest was like nothing he had ever felt, save maybe one time when he saw his whole world lying beneath tons of helicopter rubble. He tried to close his eyes, but his heart was aching. He couldn't take it any longer. He slowly rose out of the lumpy mattress and walked to the bathroom door. His hands nervously ran though his blonde mop, this was always his nervous tell. He stood outside the door and reached his hand toward the knob still hearing the sounds that made his heart hurt more and more with every second. He slowly turned the knob and crept inside. He never knew he could feel so much pain as he did as he saw her sitting in the tub as water caressed her beautiful curves that he loved so much. Her head buried in her hands, trying unsuccessfully to muffle her cries.
"Kens," he whispered softly. She barely moved as to keep herself hidden from him. He slowly undressed and sat behind her. Water flowed over their bodies. He embraced her with his strong muscular arms and whispered, "baby."
After a few seconds, she shifted her body around to face him. He knew his words in the garage had devastated her. Every man she ever let herself love left her, either intentionally or unintentionally. Her dad dying at young age, jack her fiancé abandoning her, and even Granger dying had impacted her and made her who she was. Deeks knew it had taken so long for her to admit her feelings for him, hell the same went for him. They would take one step forward and then two steps back. Was he leaving her now too? He knew his coldness had gotten to her. He had never treated her that way before. After all she was his princess, the one who saved him when he couldn't even save himself. He flashed back to before they went "all in" to the time after he was tortured. He hadn't slept in days, he was ignoring all phone calls, when she showed up at his door with yummy yummy heart attack and pastry baby in tow. At that moment, he felt peace. He was able to sleep because of her warm next to him. It then became clear to him that she was truly everything for him, even if it took them another year to make it official. To see her this way was something he couldn't bear any longer. He moved his hands to cup her face. He slowly began kissing her as the water continued to fall over their tense bodies. Her sobs began to weaken and her short rapid breathes from crying had started to slow from the comfort of him next to her. He slowly and more passionately than ever, made love to her on the floor of the tub. "Til the end of time and back" he whispered to her. A wave of relief came over her, but she knew they had so much to discuss when they returned home. She slowly felt her strength return and was now a little more prepared for the mission ahead.
"Kens, there's one seat left, get on the plane!" He commanded.
"We stay together!" She retorted, not about to leave the man she loved alone without her watching his back.
"Baby," he said trying to convince her as she stormed back to the SUV.
"That was stupid, that was your chance home," he said trying not to show too much anger knowing she would have never abandoned their team or him.
They retrieved Callen and Sam and hurried to the next helicopter point.
"Kens! Get us out of here!" They shouted seeing the roadblock waiting for them.
"Rocket launcher!"
Suddenly the front of the SUV lit in flames as they were struck by the rocket. The SUV flipped and flopped from side to side jostling the crew around like rag dolls. When it landed on its side, the four lay motionless as flames engulfed around them.
The heat of the sun beat on her face. Kensi smiled as she saw her future standing at the end of the aisle in a cornflower blue tuxedo. Her favorite color made his eyes look even more like the ocean in the background. She felt her self strolling down the sand towards him. "BOOM!" An explosion blinded her "DEEKS!" She thought she was screaming but her breath was so short it squeaked out. Realizing it was a dream, She awoke to the reality surrounding them and saw the flames and sparks shooting around them. Wiping the blood from her face it cleared her vision to see her lover lifeless next to her. "DEEKS!" This time it came out louder.
"Kensi," Sam's normally deep voice was less masculine as the sound of pain winched through his words.
"Sam, Deeks isn't waking! How's Callen?" She tried to stay calm as her voice cracked.
"Not sure, but we gotta move...NOW!" He commanded.
"I'm not leaving him Sam!"
"You two," He muffled. "G. G..." he voice concerned Kensi. "Kensi listen to me!" He commanded again, the masculine tone coming back. " I need you to see if you can get out so you can help me get Deeks and G out."
Kensi obliged. "I'll be right back, baby," she squeezed his limp hand lightly and unbuckled his belt so it would be easier to free him from the other side.
As Kensi freed herself from the flames of death that surrounded them, Sam looked down to see his wound oozing rivers of red. He quickly ripped part of his shirt and applied the homemade tournequet. He freed himself and started trying to untangle Callen from his seat belt.
"SAM! HURRY!" Kensi panicked voice shouted. Flames surrounded Deeks more and more, She helped his head slide through the broken window. Glass and flames surrounded her, but she kept focused. "Sam please," she pleaded.
"Move, Move" he scooted her aside. He had already freed himself and Callen from the wreckage moments ago.
"Please Sam," she began to tear up.
"I got him," Sam reassured a frightened Kensi.
As they all stationed a good distance away, the flames shot up higher.
Callen slowly regained consciousness and yelps in pain. "G? U ok?" Sam asked.
"Like I've been blown up Big guy!" Callen retorted. Sam smirked, "you gotta plan?"
"Baby," Kensi couldn't stop the tears from rolling down her blood stricken face. " I promise, I will have a million little mutant ninja assassins, if u just don't leave me."
Suddenly, A loud roar of trucks was tunneling towards them. "Do you have that plan yet?" Sam asked Callen.
"Yeah, apparently I earned more than horses by taking that punch," Callen stated as they saw Arlo Turk heading towards them. He then realized he was with Williams' soldiers, and the General.
Turk began shaking his head, "I told you, you should have got out of dodge while you had the chance."
The soldiers pushed down the three agents. They were beat and battered, but Kensi didn't care. All she could think about was Deeks. The soldiers had guns pointed at them, Kensi couldn't even process what was going on. She immediately jumped up and ran towards Deeks. The general and another of one of his men were loading him onto a stretcher.
"Baby, baby, it's Kens, I'm gonna figure out how to get you out of here and keep my promise to you about starting a family." She could only imagine this was how he felt seeing her trapped under the helicopter. She was awake at first and could talk to him, but then everything went black on her. She realized what a toll that had taken on him and why he had been so adamant about lately about leaving NCIS. All she could think is how selfish she was not considering everything he had been through watching her almost die time and time again.
"Please," Kensi began pleading pointing at her beloved, "he's needs to get to the hospital fast!"
Turk turned around to go after Kensi. "You're not gonna stop her," Callen hollered.
"She's putting herself in more danger!" He stated with frustration.
"It's not gonna matter, trust me," Callen explained. "She won't leave his side until it's absolutely necessary, unless you shoot her. I can't believe you turned on us."
The generals men look at Turk. Turk shakes his head, "Let her be for now, she can't go anywhere." He then turns back to Callen, "I told you to get out of here, the old lady doesnt realize what this place is like!" he tried to give Callen a hint in his reference to Hetty, to let him know he was actually there to help them. He had built connections with Williams' men and could save them from meeting their immediate demise.
"I demand answers," Williams walked over, "where is my son!"
"Well G, you got a plan B?"
Callen glanced at Sam, not knowing what plan B could be this time.
Kensi turned around, "Williams!" The general grabs her and she begins to fight.
"You should have killed me at my complex, instead of just incapacitate me for a bit. Now who are you?" Williams shouted.
"I'll tell you everything you want to know as long as you get him to a hospital, but if he dies, the deal is off!" She retorted.
"Kensi!" Callen yells from the ground.
"I can't trade his life for her! Deeks was right the whole time! I was too stubborn to listen!" Feeling like she chose the job over him, her heart sunk. She didn't deserve this man, and felt the least she could do was give up Mosely for a chance at his survival.
"Her!" Williams began to realize what was transpiring. Being a businessman, Williams knew the only way to find Mosley and attempt to get his son back, was to use Kensi's grief as a bargaining tool. He knew if Shay had enough time, she could use all her connections and be in the wind for an undetermined amount of time. "Take them to the hospital, but do not let her out of your sight!" He grabbed Kensi's arm, I will kill you both if you do not hold up your end of this deal.