Disclaimer: Sailor Moon or the song "Hello" by Evanescence does not belong to me. I could never draw anime or write music that good --

Warnings: Um, I think there aren't any. Maybe if you don't like Sailor Saturn, then this isn't the fic for you. I decided to put this as a PG fic because of the issue explained in it. Arigato gozaimasu and enjoy your reading.

(A/N: The song "Hello" is very mellow and forlorn, with only a piano playing for it's tune. Almost like Hotaru herself.)

Hello

Frailty.

Often known for breaking friendships.

How would I know…?

I've never had a single friend.

One to call my own.

My weakness always prejudiced me from the other children.

I was always alone.

My health was always too poor to run around and play.

Other children my age never even bothered to come up and ask me,

"Would you like to play with us?"

They must have known.

Any moment that I was up and about,

Running, jumping, laughing…

I could have collapsed.

Not that it bothered me…

The feeling of being rejected,

Left out of any children's game,

Slightly tugged at my heart.

A tugging that was so dull to me, I kept it hidden away for years.

Playground school bell rings again.

Rain clouds come to play again

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

Hello…

My whole childhood can be summed up in three words.

I was alone.

I was alone at school.

I was alone on the playground.

I was even alone at home.

My father never seemed to come out of his workplace.

It was just myself, and my small, frail body alone in a big house that seemed to swallow me up.

I thought that it was all a dream, that it could end at anytime…

I hated it…I wanted it to end so badly, it made me weep.

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me I'm not broken

Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

Don't cry…

If I wanted I could have just ended my life right then and there.

In that huge house.

The pills were right there.

I knew if I swallowed just five of them, it would all end for me.

My life could be gone in an instant.

No more teasing.

No more ridicule.

Just five.

I only needed five…

Five………..

Those five… ended… it all for me……..

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping

Hello, I'm still here

All that's left of yesterday…….

I wrote this when I was in a very somber mood and listening to Evanescence's "Hello" song. I'm sorry if Hotaru seems OOC, but this is my very first Sailor Moon fiction/poem, and just maybe if I wrote more of them, I would improve. Please R&R and tell me what you think of it. Arigato gozaimasu.