Disclaimer: Don't own kingdom hearts =[
It never says in the story but this is from Namine's point of view.
It's hard to imagine how things could be different,
A different gesture or phrase, would things have been the same?
Do you remember first grade Roxas? When you were "scared" of me? For some reason you always avoided getting on my bad side while we played outside. In the classroom too. We were so young and carefree back then. Those were good times.
Friends. Maybe even best friends, but then in second grade you had to leave. Change school because of your brother. That was so depressing since you were my first crush. After second grade, I'm ashamed to admit, I nearly forgot about you. It would be around two to three years when I would see you again. Fifth grade. Unfortunately people change over time. I was afraid to approach you and not once did we smile and greet each other. My first mistake. Perhaps you were scared too? A year passed and we graduated into middle school.
My imagination runs wild thinking of that day.
Had I turned to smile at you, to take your hand,
Things wouldn't be this way.
We wouldn't pass each other in the halls in silence.
I was so excited and nervous to find out that you were in my sixth grade English and Social Studies class. The teacher, however, never sat us near each other. I believe the only direct interaction I had with you was when we were working in the same group for an in class project. I remember you picking up my eraser and playing with it. Not once did I look at you or talk to you. I was too shy.
If I only looked up and smiled, said hello.
Not just hello, any word to break the years of silence.
But another year passed as I shied away from looking at you.
Too nervous to look into such beautiful eyes,
Too shy to break that silence.
One day when the whole class was working on separate projects, Hayner randomly came to tell me that you liked me. I was shocked, flattered, and amused when I heard you moan, "No, don't tell her!" Unfortunately nothing came out of that. Maybe you were waiting for a response from me. I, however, had forgotten due to my best friend pestering me about another boy who liked me. Constantly pestering me! Every single day! I feel awful about forgetting and no matter how many times I think about it I'll always regret it.
Now it's too late to imagine how things could be different.
Looking back I wonder, have you ever thought about it?
The way I think of it now?
I didn't have a class with you till junior year in high school. We passed each other many times in the hallways and I saw you at lunch some days. You always seemed to look so happy. Every time I saw you I was always reminded of that day when Hayner came to me. What he said and how I failed to act.
Nothing had come out of that semester of physics together. Truthfully, I didn't expect anything to happen, but a girl can hope.
I imagine you have but I doubt it.
After all the past was the past and they say not to dwell on past events.
I probably won't forget but I'll imagine you did so I won't regret this so much.
First grade was a long time ago and I can't say I still like you the way I did back then, but I still wanted to be your friend. I don't think I will ever get that chance again. I've messed up too many times to deserve another shot. This year we won't have any classes together. I just know it. I won't forget, but I always hoped you would forgive me.