Everything was finally clear to me
In the heat of the battle, as the blood of those that I cared for rained down on the cold earth, it all shifted into place. The desire that had raged within me had now quelled, leaving me feeling normal again.
I knew exactly what had caused it and in turn, I realized that this whole battle had become something more.
This was my fight and mine alone. I had to protect everything and everyone I cared about, even the things I had just found out about.