Title: To Accept the Unthinkable
Author: Jennifer (Babybluejj21@aol.com)
Rating: G-PG:13 (mild curse words, don't mess with a pregnant woman)
Spoilers: Everything up to "End of the World"
Couples: Conventional and Unconventional
Distribution: If you like to put the story on the site, go ahead, just let me know where its going, use the e-mail address above.
Summary: Liz did the unthinkable, she slept with Future Max. Why? She was vulnerable, and he was there for her. Things get complicated when Liz becomes pregnant with his child. In embarrassment, she moves to New Orleans, never telling Max what happened in her one night of passion. Maria and Alex eventually follow her there. But one night Liz and her child are kidnapped, and Alex and Maria must turn to the people they left in Roswell.
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To Accept the Unthinkable
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Chapter 1
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I'm Liz Parker and yesterday I did the most horrible act ever.
The Day Before
"I can't believe that I will be able to marry Max and have the fairy tale life," Liz said to herself. She was in her room alone, she had a white sweater wrapped around her head. She smiled to herself, she thought she looked like a flying nun. But she had reasons to be happy. A couple of hours ago, she was suckered into going to see a psychic with Maria and Alex. Madame Viviane, as she liked to be called, said that she would have her man. Liz Parker would have Max Evans. She was skeptical at first. Only a couple of months before, she walked away from Max, after he learned his destiny. She never would have thought. But when Madame Vivian said she would have Max, she went crazy. All her love for Max resurfaced and she was electrified with joy, that was until he showed up.
Future Max, that's who.
He told her that to save the universe he needed Liz to have present-day Max fall out of love with her. Once their mission was accomplished, Future Max would disappear. The future would be changed. All her hopes were shattered. Boy, was the psychic a crock of shit. And she helped Future Max. She tried to have Tess and Max fall in love or maybe start something. Plan A didn't work, Plan B didn't either, but their was Plan C. She learned from Future Max that the night of the Gomez concert, they cemented their love, and from there they would never be apart, they would be married at 19 in Las Vegas. Romantic, huh? But Tess would leave, four square would not be complete. The unit that was 4 would be three and their chances of survival wouldn't be high.
To see Max's face, when he saw Liz and Kyle in bed was so heart breaking. Of course, she didn't sleep with Kyle, just pretend. God, did that hurt. The look in his eyes, she had never seen anyone so hurt. It was like she helped save the world, but her world, her heart broke. And it would be impossible to heal.
She told Kyle she needed time to be alone. He wanted to stay, but she insisted so as he left, Future Max came out from the shadows and he tried to comfort her, but she pushed him away at first. If she couldn't be with present-day Max, she didn't want to tease herself with his counterpart.
They sat on the balcony for a while. Thirty-year old Max couldn't look at her. He caused so much pain for Liz and himself, but he didn't care about himself, he just wanted to make sure Liz was all right. But of course she wasn't. He gently put his hand of her back, rubbing her back, in a consoling way. She put her head on his shoulder and cried. She cried and cried. He hugged her and she kissed him. Why? She didn't know. All of her emotions were fogged up. She didn't know what was right or wrong anymore. She didn't see clearly. Maybe she wanted Future Max. Or have a part of her Max. She would never have her wedding, never have happiness, every boy she would meet would be second best. She was vulnerable, she was going to have the burden of her secret, until the day she died. There was no way, Max or anyone for that matter could find out what happened.
In the heat of things, they made love. Passionate love. Liz gently cried. Future Max stopped when he saw the tears, but Liz wiped her tears and told him she wanted this. She knew she was doing something wrong, but she pushed that aside. When she woke up in the morning, thinking everything was a bad nightmare, she looked under the covers and she wasn't clothed and Future Max wasn't next to her. Plan C worked.