It all started with a drunken night and teenage stupidity, but now what is it? Becktorade. Rated T. Tumblr request.
It started with a drunken night with Jade in her dark bedroom in those soft sheets with her pale silky skin and soft rose petal lips on mine. It wasn't supposed to happen then, and it wasn't supposed to happen again. But it did, over and over.
She wasn't happy, and I was being stupid.
Beck wasn't happy, either. I was still being stupid. He was another drunken night while Jade was out of town. His RV smelled like a gym, his bed was lumpy, and his skin was rough, but I liked how his calloused fingers felt against my hips as we kissed, and I decided that I wasn't hurting either of them. They were both cheating. And who was it going to hurt for me to be with them?
Well that opinion only lasted a few weeks, and then came having to choose between Jade and Beck, and lying to either one about what I was doing that I couldn't come over. My stomach twisted each time one would invite me over and the other already had. Seeing them in school was the best part of the day because they were overly attentive, shockingly neither noticed. But I did, Cat did. Andre and Robbie were making bets on the person each was cheating with.
They, of course, were wrong.
Andre thought Jade was cheating with Ryder or some guy I didn't know and that Beck was cheating with Alyssa Vaughn. Robbie was closest, though, he thought Jade was sleeping with a girl, having overheard something between us in the janitor's closet, and that Beck was sleeping with the same girl, once again that damn janitors closet.
Dragging myself into school after a long night at Jade's was too much for me. I fought to keep up the stupid smile and my happy attitude. By lunch I was ready to collapse into a fit of sobs. I always hated cheaters and the people who knowingly slept with them. Mostly because of my moms recent affair with Gary that had my parents split up.
But here I was, sleeping with Beck and Jade. That made me doubly guilty. When they sat down at lunch Beck tried to sit beside me but Jade shoved him over forcefully and practically sat in my lap, "move your ass over, Vega." She growled. I obliged without comment, keeping my head ducked, my hair draped over the marks on my neck from her last night.
"You okay, Tori?" Robbie asked, bending his head to meet my eyes and force me to follow his gaze up enough to lift my chin out of my salad. I sigh and went to shove my fingers through my hair and hesitated. Sure it wouldn't be weird to have a few hickeys, but Beck would know they weren't caused by him and would ask questions. And I'd have to lie.
And Jade was sitting right next to me, her bare thigh brushing mine. And god I hated them both. But I mostly hated myself. I shoved my salad aside and rested my elbow on the table, using my hand to hold up my head. Andre was staring at me strangely, and so was Cat.
"You okay, chica?" Andre asked.
"Yeah, just stayed up late reading." I mumbled, forcing myself not to look at Jade who ran her hand down my thigh, sending shivers through my whole body. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I didn't bother to answer it; I just looked over at Beck who raised an eyebrow. I blinked once. Yes.
Beck was supposed to be over in an hour, and in ten minutes Jade would be here. My mom was out, Trina was off god knows where, and I felt sick to my stomach. I couldn't stop randomly bursting into tears, even as I paced across my floor tears were rolling down my face.
Downstairs I heard Jade's car door slam shut, in a few minutes she was inside and closing the door behind her, coming straight up to my room, combat boots slamming on the stairs, "what's wrong Vega? What happened?" she asked before she even opened the door. As soon as she saw me she threw her bag on the floor and walked over to me, grabbing my chin firmly and tilting my head up.
"Can we just watch a movie and not talk about it? I just didn't want to be alone…" she looks like she's about to yell at me, but then she stops and shrugs, gently taking my arm and we head downstairs. She doesn't ask again, she just turns on the TV and makes herself some popcorn and a drink and sits beside me.
An hour later the doorbell rings, I'm not crying anymore. Jade noticed but didn't say anything, "expecting company?" she asks.
"Yep." I stand up, taking a deep breath, and walk over the door, pulling it open and stepping back far enough that Beck sees Jade sitting on my couch. Jade rises from the couch as soon as Beck steps in and they both look at me, the anger and sadness that has been building inside of me for an hour spews over, "you're cheating on each other."
Jade's the first to explode, screaming at him like everything's his fault. I slump onto the couch with my face buried in my hands while they scream back and fourth until I can't handle it anymore. "You're cheating on each other. Both of you are! With me! And both of you are stupid and everyone knows your cheating and I feel like such a piece of trash because I'm not the other girl! Not anymore!"
I flee to the bathroom, kneeling over the toilet and losing what little food I'd eaten today. I hover over the toilet just incase, and then close the lid, resting my head on its cool surface. My stomach is churning and my eyes hurt. The bathroom door opening hardly registers, but I feel Jade's soft hands pulling my hair back and she makes me stand up, hands me a cup and I smell mouthwash. I rinse my mouth out and spit into the sink and Beck's strong arms hoist me up without pause, he carries me across the hall and lays me down on my bed. Jade's on one side of me and Beck's on the other.
"We're sorry." Beck says his voice soft and tender, it seeps into my skin like warm rays of sunlight.
"We didn't realize you were…we're just sorry. We shouldn't have done that to you." Jade pauses, "I just couldn't help myself after that night, I should have just…handled it differently. I didn't think you even minded. I'm sorry." Jade rubs my arm soothingly.
"I'm sorry Tori, I really never thought you had a problem because when I asked you just said yes. I didn't…I feel like a piece of shit for making you feel like this." Beck tells me. I rest my head on my pillow, Jade curls around behind me and Beck curls up in front of me. Their fingers laced together over my hip, "You know…we could make it up to you."
I crack my eyes open a bit to see a devious smirk on Beck's face.
Their entwined hands push my shirt up, running up my side lightly enough that I shiver, "oh really? You think so?" my earlier emotional trauma is shoved aside, because no matter what these two set me on fire. Jade leans in, her lips brushing my ear.
"I think so." She whispers, kissing the back of my neck softly, "I really think so…"