Hey everyone! This is my first EVER fan fic, so I hope you all enjoy! Comments would be great to let me know! I do have the first couple of chapters written, but I don't want to waste my time if there isn't anyone interested!

CHAPTER ONE: THE DREAM

We're standing on the cliff side and I ask Jake to kiss me. He kisses me with all of the passion a man could possibly possess. His warmth passing through me, melting my resolve…

Another dream. It's been four years since I have seen Jacob Black and the weight of my decision still heavy on my shoulders. After graduation, Edward and I moved to Alaska. I decided that I wanted to wait until I was graduated from College to get married and go through my transformation. I am currently in my Senior year of College. I'm working on my major in Veterinary Medicine. Graduation was in two weeks.

Since the first day of my senior year, I have been having a hard time dealing with the upcoming events that will change my life forever. I was so sure when I left Forks, that this was what I wanted. What I needed and what I was meant to do with my life. I miss Charlie. I miss my friends, and Jacob. Jake. Most of all I miss Jake.

"Bella." Edward calls.

I sigh with frustration. "Yes?"

"I'm going out to hunt. I'll see you soon, ok?

"Alright, take your time." I hear the Cullen's leave, and surprisingly, I'm relieved. I'm not sure what's going on with me lately, but I'm starting to find out. "I want to go home." I confess to myself. The blue of my walls seemed to get brighter with my realization. Jake once told me that Edward was like a drug, and he, he could be my sun. I never really understood what he meant until right now. I needed to talk to Charlie.

It had been 6 months since I had called Charlie and he was very excited to hear my voice.

"Bella! Nice to hear your voice kiddo! How's school?" He asked

"School is great dad, almost done." I tried to sound up-beat, but he seen right through me.

"Is there something wrong Bells? Did he hurt you?" he questioned me.

I couldn't hide this. I needed my fathers support if I was going to do what I was considering. "Dad, I need to talk to you about something."

"Sure, anything Bell's."

"I want to come home Dad." I sighed.

"Bell's" he chuckled "You know you and Edward are always welcome to come home and visit."

"No, Dad. I want to come home." putting emphasis on the I, he understood.

"What happened Bella? You know that you can tell me."

"I'm just not happy anymore Dad. I thought by coming out here with Edward, I would find myself." I confessed. "But I think instead, I lost myself along the way. It's just not the same anymore. And I miss my life in Forks."

Charlie was silent for a minute. Very carefully he asked, "are you sure about this Bell's? You have to be certain this is what you want. Mind you, I would be thrilled, but I want to make sure this is really what you want in your heart."

"I've been dreaming about him dad."

"Who?" he asked, confused.

"Jake. This whole thing was a mistake. I should have listened to him dad. He tried to tell me."

"I don't know how to say this Bell's, but Jake isn't here."

"What? What happened. Where did he go?" I asked, my heart beating out of my chest.

"War."

"No." I cried.

"He joined the Army Two years ago. He's in Afghanistan."

"When does he come home?"

"In a month, almost to the day."

I was scared, but so proud of him. I had to shake away the thought of him in that uniform. It wasn't the right time to think about how sexy he would look. "Dad, I'm ready to walk away from Edward. I love him, but I'm not in love with him. It's taken me almost 4 years to realize that, but I'm coming home. I don't know how I'm going to do this Dad, but it has to happen."

"How are you going to break the news to Edward?"

"He already knows." Edwards voice cracked behind me.