Chapter 1

"Clark stared at Lois, not really knowing how to say what he needed. He bounced with the idea of telling her his secret, but how could he tell her and take it away like that. And now he was; everything he rehearsed was out the window. "My whole life has been full of relationships that have ended too soon. And when I went away last fall, Lois I felt so lost." He turned away from Lois, mimicking how he felt." But when I came back to the bullpen, you were there waiting for me. You jumped out of your seat and you threw your arms around me and the way your eyes sparkled when you smiled, I knew." A small smile was brought to both of their faces as Clark retold the memory. "I just knew you were the one I always needed. And I needed you to know that." He hoped that was good enough, but when all he got back was a blank stare, he asked, "What is it?"

"Now Lois was the one that didn't know what to say. "Perry White, he offered me a job at the foreign desk in Kenya."

Clark looked away. Maybe this is for the best. "That's great, congratulations."

""I'm not sure if I'm going." Does he really want me to go?

"Well Lois, your career is so important to you. What would make you stay?"

Was he crazy or just dumb? "For you. I would stay for you. Clark as important as my career is to me, you are more important. I would give up Africa to be with you. Clark, I don't know if you realized this but I'm in lo—"

Before Lois could finish Clark was right in front of her, kinda invading her personal space if she wanted to maintain her composure, silencing her with a finger to her lips. Clark knew what she was going to say. Ever since he kissed her in the bullpen it was all he ever wanted to hear from her. But he couldn't hear it now.

"Lois please don't." His eye begged her. Clark moved his hands down to her shoulders.

"Clark I'm trying to tell you I lo—".

He once again cut her off with his words, "I know. It's just if you say it, I'm not going to be able to do what I have to do." How could he when there was a woman like Lois Lane lo—ing, you. Even in his head Clark couldn't think of it.

"What do you have to do?"

Clark still couldn't tell her.

"Come on," Silence, "I need you to be honest with me."

"I think you leaving Metropolis is the best thing for you right now." Clark took her into a hug. "Just know that wherever you are I will be watching over you, I will be thinking of you."

It cut into Lois like a hot knife.

"I'm sorry, I should go." It came out as a whisper because that's all Lois had the strength to do.

Clark saw Lois on the verge of tears. And it killed him that he was the reason for that. On one hand maybe it was better if he left with Lois mad at him. Maybe it would make it easier somehow. But for a second, all Clark wanted to do was be selfish. He didn't want his last memory of Lois to be one of her in tears.

"Lois was about to reach her car when she felt her arm being tugged. Clark was right behind her. "Lois I—" That was all he said before he crashed his lips onto hers. One hand went to her neck, the other to her waist pulling her close. He could feel the shock running through her and the hesitancy as she had her hands on his chest. Clark thought she was trying to push him away. But when she opened her mouth the tiniest bit, Clark took full advantage. He needed this woman. Soon Lois couldn't help herself and she grasped on to his coat pulling him even closer. Lois' hands moved from his chest to grip onto his hair. Clark took a step forward and Lois found herself pinned between Clark and her car. Lois moved her leg up and Clark grabbed it for support. He needed this woman. The kissed became more intense and before Lois knew it Clark lifted her up and started toward the house. She began to kiss his neck as be opened the door. Clark dropped her down as soon as they were inside. He needed this woman. Quickly they shed their jackets and moved up the stairs finally reaching his bedroom. As they continued to undress Lois felt her back hit the mattress and Clark climbed on top of her. They both tried to control their breathing as they took a second to realize what was about to happen. Clark smiled with sad eyes as he took her in. Hair laying haphazardly on his pillow. Eyes hazy with lust. Lips swollen. The unsteady breath of her chest wrapped in a black lace bra. He needed this woman.

"I need you, Clark."

Lois awoke an hour later to a cold bed. She sat up smiling remembering what happened there not too long ago. She wondered where the culprit to her happiness went when she found a note on the dresser next to her.

"Her smile faded when all it said was "I'm sorry."

Clark's last thought before he ascended to another world with the Kryptonians was of Lois.

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