Hey everyone! Wow, I can't believe I even got started on a Hellsing fic. I'm sorry if it gets a little OOC personality wise. This is, of course, after hours :P
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"Stay with me..." Integra whispered as her fingers traced Alucard's sharp jaw lightly.
"I always do." Alucard answered with that wide, smirkish grin of his that never failed to give Integra butterflies in her stomach.
Integra closed her eyes as she moved closer to Alucard, who was holding her with his cold hands. This relationship has been going on secretly for a few months now, and no one else besides themselves and Walter knows.
Integra insists it on being a secret; although Alucard never seems to understand why. It was just that very day when she stabbed herself to the neck and bled herself out that she revisited the past years with Alucard in her mind. The only reason why she pulled through is only because she cannot imagine a world without him as her light, even though he is really the darkness in reality. Integra always felt safe in his arms, where no one could even touch a hair on her head.
She liked that feeling, where she can give up all her senses of control and trust her being with Alucard. Safe and sound.
All through the day she has to be Lady Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing; leader of the Hellsing organization. Always having to think of her soldiers, her plans, always having to be in control; never showing fear. But in Alucard's arms, she is always able to let those feelings go. A sigh of relief, as she would always think to herself. Yet another day of fighting ghouls, vampires and protecting England has made her weary. She took off a glasses and rubbed her eyes, then staring up into Alucard's red ones.
"I like this feeling," She began softly. "I like it that you don't sleep at night- and you watch me, protect me. All these years..."
"It is my duty to do so, my Master." Alucard replied, giving a small smile. He isn't usually confused this way. How can he, a category A vampire, be able to feel this way for his Master, whom he should actually hate for binding him this way? But he stayed, out of his own will. Afterall, a decade of being with this human being has made something in his heart flutter; something he didn't want to fight.
"Don't call me that when we're off duty. Right now, you are my Master." She purred and reached out to kiss his cold but soft lips.
He returned the kiss softly, not wanting to lose control. He knows his limits when it comes to their relationship. Although he knows it will only be so long before he can control his urges. Not for her blood, but for her. He moved his hand towards her neck and stroked it gently, calming her like nothing ever has before. He knew it, inside his unbeating heart and he wanted to say it. However, vampire or not, he was afraid of rejection.
Alucard's mind started wandering off as it always did when he thought about that four letter word; Love. What will happen if he said it? Will their relationship continue this way, after hours? Will Integra the Master come out of hiding during the night and send him away? It always seemed fun to him, playing this role of servent in the day and a passionate lover at night. Integra seemed to bring out a more... humane side of him.
"What's wrong?" Integra pulled away and asked. "You're acting so weird, like your head is somewhere else."
Alucard was silent, not knowing whether to say it or not; not knowing if what he felt was real and not his own imagination. A decade. A decade of serving the most patriotic, loyal person in England. A decade of seeing her ups and downs with the organization. A decade of seeing her weak and vulnerable at night...
"I... I don't know how to say this." He began, silently bashing himself for portraying his weakness. That was right, his weakness is love. Sure, he can fight all night, but when it comes to love, his dead heart seems to come to life.
Integra looked at him with her eyebrows creased. What in the world was Alucard thinking about? This has been happening so frequently these days, and it's making her mad. It's bad enough that she has to put up with a whole day of fighting and planning, but when it comes to nightfall, she only wants to be with him in peace. She just doesn't understand how males, no; vampires think!
He looked at her, his face suddenly hardening up and giving her some sort of a spiteful glare. He didn't like being questioned for answers. Especially if it was an answer he didn't know himself.
"Nothing. It's time for my meal. Goodnight, master." He trailed off as he faded away, leaving Integra in her bed.
"What the fuck? ALUCARD! ALUCARD! Get back here you monster!" She screamed and threw her pillow against the wall.
Integra heard a loud sinister laugh that faded into nothing as she got up and continued shouting for Alucard angrily. She looked at the clock that says 3AM. It was time for bed, anyways. She had a long day tomorrow.
"I'll deal with you tomorrow." She whispered, grabbing her pillow from the floor and headed to bed.
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Alucard sat on his chair, drinking a pack of medical blood from his goblet. He had no other way; he had to be alone in his thoughts. He knows he's going to get the cold shoulder tomorrow but he doesn't care. He knows she'll calm down after awhile. She had a soft spot for him when he grins.
He stood up and put down the glass and paced around, thinking. What is love? Is love just wanting to be around that person all the time, protecting her? Is love simply physical attraction? Does love come with respect? Sure, he respects Integra, but his pride got in the way of making his real feelings known. After so many months of accompanying her at night, the both of them always neglected to talk about their feelings. But now his heart was getting anxious, impatient. He needed something real in his life amidst all the killing and blood.
He laughed. A quiet laugh which started off small, but quickly turned into a huge sinister laugh.
He finally found the answer.
"I love her... My master." He murmured to himself, taking a rose from the vase and smelling it before crushing it into nothing.
Stay tuned for chapter 2!!