So, what...now she's just, out of my life?
Things are complicated. Everything. How could I be with the one I love, when she's the one who is fated to kill me?
I can't.
That's why it makes all of this so hard. Going to school, seeing her, avoiding her deep blue eyes that pierce into mine.
I can't tell her. I can't. Would she kill me? Would she love me? Would she run away? I don't know, honestly. And honestly, I don't know if I can take the chance.
It all comes down to the eternal question.
Love or life?
Am I willing to take the risk, all for her?
I don't care what people have said in the past. I don't even care what terrible things she might have done. I just want her. I want to BE with her. I want to be able to look into her eyes and tell her how I feel, knowing she feels the same.
All this time. All this time, I never would have guessed things could turn out this way; things would turn out this way. I have to admit, love is pretty unpredictable.
"Jake...?"
I looked up from the sink in the bathroom. She was standing in the doorway. My mouth fell open.
"Uhh, I-I'm sorry. I mean, I should go, this is the boys bathroom.", she turned to leave.
"No, wait!", I said, lunging forward and grabbing her arm.
She blushed and stared into my eyes, so close to hers.
"I...", I didn't know what exactly to say to her.
We stared at each other, and I realized that I was still holding onto her arm. I pulled away, and stepped back to let her in.
"I, sorry...about that. I just, I didn't want you to leave."
I avoided her eyes.
"Jake?" I could feel them burning into me.
"Um, yeah?"
"Look, I'm really sorry. I should have spent more time with you on the ski trip."
I looked up into her eyes.
"I'm sorry, too."
"For what?"
"For...for being, you know...cold. I was just...frustrated, I guess."
She stared at me.
"Well...I like you. A lot. And it's just, I dunno...hard, I guess. When you're not around."
Sadness filled her blue eyes, and I couldn't look away.
"J-Jake...I, I'm not a perfect person."
I moved closer to her.
"Neither am I."
She took my hand, and kissed it.
"Jake...you're too good to me. I don't deserve you."
I gazed into her eyes.
"Of course you do."
She sighed, and smiled at me. I longed for her lips.
From the distance, I heard the late bell ring.
"Well, we should get going."
"Yeah...", I didn't want to leave.
Suddenly the door banged open and some freshman walked in, staring at us, so close together, lips inches apart, my hand in hers.
"Ummmmmmm..."
He turned and left.
"Okay, then.", she laughed.
"Haha..."
"Well, he's probably off to the principal right now, so I really should get out of here."
"Yeah, my bio teacher is probably murderous that I'm not in his class...so..."
"So when am I going to see you again?"
"W-what do you mean?"
"I mean, I really want to spend more time with you."
I opened my mouth and then closed it. What do I say? If she knew the truth about me...
"Sure. I'd love to like, I dunno, go on another date...if you want to, that is.", the words spilled out of my mouth.
"Of course.", she smiled at me, and I had to smile back. She's pretty freaking beautiful.
I walked outside into the hallway with her, we could see the principal and that freshman walking towards us from way down the hall.
"Pshhhht, freshman..."
We laughed.
"Better get out of here.. I'll see you around, Jake.", she winked.
"Bye, Rose.", I said, as she turned.
Walking to my biology class, I kept replaying everything over and over again in my head.
"Shit..I love her.", I muttered to myself.
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