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Say Goodbye

He walked alone in the shadows, not knowing where he was going. His feet pounded on the cold concrete that was a sidewalk and the rain was hitting him head on drenching him. From anyone else's point of view, he looked like a bum. He hadn't shaved in three days, or at least that's the last time he could remember, he quit counting the days. His clothes were a mess. They were dirty and he hadn't changed in at least a week. He smelled atrocious and he couldn't blame the strangers for walking clear across the street from him when they saw him. He looked like he just crawled out of a hole.

At this point in time he could really careless what he looked or smelled like as long as he could get his thoughts off of her. He had done it again and again, but this time he really did it. The only person he had ever truly cared about was gone, and it was all, his fault. This time she left him, not the other way around. It all happened that night five and a half months ago.

Flashback

"How could you??" Jude yelled from the doorway of their bedroom.

"It's not what you think, Jude!" Tommy said as he was scrambling around looking for his clothes.

"Yea, so you lying on top of that silicone barbie over there on our bed is not what it looks like, huh? You care to explain what it is then?"

"We were, uh, you see, uh-" Tommy stammered

"Yea, that's what I though Tommy. Well guess what, you don't have to worry about me anymore, I'll be gone by this time tomorrow."

"Jude, no…it didn't mean anything, she doesn't mean anything!!"

"You had your chance Tommy and you blew it. Sorry, game over."

End Flashback

So that's how Tom Quincy ended up wandering the streets of Toronto at 3:28 in the morning with no where to go. Actually correction, he did have somewhere to go, but it reminded him too much of her. He couldn't bear to go back, not after what he did .

Jude was true to her word, and was gone the next day. She just packed her things and left. She didn't even tell him where she was going. Not that he expected her to though. To Tommy's surprise though, she did leave him a song. He found it sitting on the nightstand, next to the picture of him and Jude. God did it hurt to look at that picture. He grabbed the disk and placed it in his stereo. Almost instantly he heard her voice coming through the speakers.

(Say Goodbye – Theory of a Deadman)

She said "Don't leave this up to me to say that I don't love you anyway"
Just leave it up to me to say goodbye
Because these good times will never last
Keep a hand on the wheel and a foot on the gas
We thought it would last forever
I wish you'd just remember

No
Will anything change your mind?
(She said)
A one way ticket was a pretty good sign
(And I said)
Well how can you leave it all?
(And she said)
There ain't much to leave behind
Just say goodbye
So say goodbye
Say goodbye
So say goodbye
Just say goodbye
So say goodbye
Say goodbye

Next time I'll take it slow
And as for you I'll never know
At least next time I'll try to understand
So please don't leave this up to me to say that you don't love me anyway
I'll just leave it up to you to say goodbye
Cuz these good times will never last
Keep a hand on the wheel and a foot on the gas
We thought it would last forever
In case you don't remember

No
Just say goodbye
So say goodbye
Say goodbye
So say goodbye
Just say goodbye
So say goodbye
Say goodbye

By the time the song finished, Tommy was a mess. He had sat himself on the bed and just cried. He couldn't believe what he did to her. "I am such an idiot!" he screamed. "I screw everything up. Anything good that comes my way, I royally screw it up!" He then picked up the nearest thing he could find and threw it across the room. He shattered the mirror that was across the room. "Dammit!" Still crying, Tommy got up and picked up the pieces of the broken mirror.. Afterward he put Jude's song on replay, and fell asleep listening to Jude's voice.