I really can't explain this one. Too much heartbreak and too much music leads to sadstuck songfics that usually target the susceptible Dave.
To be completely honest with you guys, this wasn't my first choice for the storyline. First I was gonna have Dave leave for Texas and John realize wait a sec no dont go fuuuuuuuck
And then it was gonna be dave realizing once he actually saw john with karkat (for he had set them up) that holy crap i really love him WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF
Anyways its based off Let Her Go by Passenger which is an amazing song btw and i love it so much and it makes me cry
(he has such a girly voice though like chris pratt)
ANYWAYS
(omg have you guys seen that shirtless chris pratt thing)
ANYWAYS
((GOD I HATE EVERYTHING MY SONGFICS ARE MASTERPIECES))
You can't believe it. You just can't.
He got a boyfriend.
You'd think that after all these years together of being best friends that you'd have first pick or whatever once he realized how extremely gay he was, but he doesn't even tell you. You walk into school and the first thing you see is him and Karkat - Karkat, for god's sake - and you can't believe your eyes. You turn the fuck around and you're gone. Fuck it. How can you be expected to sit through seven hours of already monotonous bullshit when one of your only goddamn friends and your life's crush are… are...
You don't acknowledge the wetness streaming down your cheeks. Striders don't cry.
You hadn't even known how much you loved him until that moment.
That thought haunts you as you lie on your bed, staring at the wall. You'd thought about what might happen before, but that was a long time ago. The pain was a hundred times worse than you could have possibly imagined. And it just multiplies with every avoidance of one simple thought.
He doesn't love you.
It doesn't matter that he loves Karkat. It doesn't even matter if he doesn't love Karkat. It just matters that he doesn't love you, and that's final.
You've lost two things today. You've lost John as a love, and you've lost him as a friend. Because you know you can't possibly continue this tight of a friendship if he won't even tell you he's dating one of your other friends.
You just cry harder.
Must he insist upon trying to talk to you?
Your phone keeps buzzing intermittently, your computer won't stop popping with your goddamn pesterchum and you just want it to stop. You don't want to see him. You don't want to see anyone.
Bro knocks on your door, not waiting for you to open it and shoving John in.
"For fuck's sake, deal with this already."
You don't even look up. Your phone buzzes again and you throw it at the wall you're facing. You hear John gasp slightly and jump a little. "Look, Dave…"
You don't react when he says your name, although you internally flinch. You don't want to hear it again. You don't want to hear that twinge of regret in his voice.
"You don't understand… Karkat-"
"I understand. Get out."
"Dave-"
"Go."
Your voice cracks. You don't care. He's gone and that's what matters.
He's gone.
so i removed the lyrics but you get the gist ugh
i was gonna do a sequel but fuck it now
UGH WHY IS IT ONLY ME EVERYONE ELSE HAS SONGFICS