Beauty In Goodbye Chapter 1: Nobody Wins, a x-men: evolution fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own X-Men: Evolution or Nobody Wins.

"But I love you."

"It's just not enough."

"You used to say that our love would always be enough."

"I thought it would be. I was naïve then. I thought a lot of things were possible when there is no chance of them happening."

"So this is goodbye?"

"I'm sorry." She reached up to brush a tear from her eye. She really had loved this man deeply. She still did. Even though her heart was breaking, she knew what she had to do.

"Well, then, goodbye." He leaned in to give her one last kiss.

"Lance?"

"Yeah?"

"I'll never forget you."

"Me neither, Kit." With this, he walked away. He had known that this was coming eventually. Her team was her life. Dating someone who worked for S.H.I.E.L.D. meant that there were secrets kept from her team. There were secrets kept from her. It was something they had fought over many times and never resolved. It had finally been enough to tear them apart.

They both knew that this had been coming. They had steeled themselves for it. The when had been unknown, but both knew it was inevitable. They weren't destined to be together. They were too different, deep down.

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight than walk away

Both fought strongly for what they believed. Neither were wrong in their beliefs, but neither were completely right either. They were both proud of themselves and it shone through in every way. Much more similarity than this, they didn't have.

As much as she had thought he was a hood during their younger years, she knew that he belonged on the other side. He should be protecting, not terrorizing. His love of fighting would have helped him immensely if he had joined their side for more than a few hours. However, it would have meant learning to walk away when necessary.

What a lonely way to breathe the air
What an unlovely way to say you care
Now we're too far gone for me to save
And I never thought that we'd come to this

Kitty had thought that the Brotherhood's detachment from everything would make it an incredibly lonely place. They lived together, yet each member always seemed lonely, somehow. Now that they were over, he really didn't have anybody. His willingness to walk away after she broke it off showed her how much he really cared. He hadn't tried to fight it, rather had just accepted it, as he did in extreme situations where he had no control.

Kitty felt tears threatening again, but she pushed them back. She had tried everything she knew to save them, to save him. They were just too far gone. Nothing she had done had made a difference. No matter how much she tried to avoid this, it became inevitable. She really had thought they'd be able to work it out.

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

She knew that it had been no good to try anymore. They were done. This would leave them available to find someone they could be with completely. Or so Kitty told herself. She had to see something good, something beautiful in this or she would lose it.

To be honest, she was tired of it all. He was constantly pushing her away. Every time she was with him, it seemed like she would come alive only to die a little. It was way too dark for her. She couldn't take it. It was too many reasons for things to go wrong. Too man reasons that would end with tears and a broken heart.

Searching for the truth in your eyes
Found myself so lost don't recognize
The person now that you, you claim to be
Don't know when to stop, or where to start
You're just so caught up in who you are
Now you're far too high for me to see
I'd never thought that we'd come to this

Lance had watched her eyes to see if she was really telling him what she was feeling. She had been. The sad truth was that she had lost him. Not just broken up, they could both deal with that, but she had caused him to lose who he was. In his helping the X-Men, he had forgotten his true self.

She claimed to be a protector of justice. The only problem was the fine line between justice and injustice. The X-Men had crossed that line several times and never realized it. They were always trying to fix the injustices that they had accidentally created more injustice.

Lance had once asked her if she knew who she was. Her proud answer had been 'Of course. I'm an X-Man.' That was how she defined herself. One of the good guys that were occasionally above the law. They had been credited with saving the world and were looked up to. Nothing like the sacred girl he had met that remembered what it was like to be one of the little people.

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about fly, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

Lance knew from past experience that you could take a goodbye two ways: as an ending or as a new beginning. He didn't know which this was, but he desperately hoped for a new beginning. They were at an end and he hoped that he would look back and see it as a good thing several years down the road.

You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that you love me
But don't - it's too late to take it there

(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)

Nobody wins