Amy's P.O.V

As I lay in the bottom bunk bed with Rory I couldn't get to sleep. I remember I didn't get an hours worth. It wasn't the fact I wasn't comfy or too warm or too cold - something was on my mind. It had nothing to do with Rory's 'quiet' snoring beside me either, I'd gotten used to that - with great difficulty. It was typical, I even made him go to a sleep clinic a couple of years ago and it still made no difference. We've only been married for two days, however it felt like more. I just knew I needed some sleep. Surely I could cope another full night without thinking about him. No - not Rory, the Doctor..my Doctor. I suppose I should stop calling him my Raggedy Doctor since he is no longer raggedy. I'm starting to see a different side to him now, one I had never seen before.

I still couldn't believe what I did. I got married. Proper married. I got married having no idea who the Doctor was or what part he played in my life. Why did River come with that stupid diary of hers after the wedding? The truth is and it pains me to say this but...I don't want to be married - It feels as though I've betrayed the Doctor in a way. Anyway, moving on, I really, really needed some sleep. So I shut my eyes and started to doze off again until I heard a loud banging noise coming from the console room.

It sounded like someone dropped something. Rory was still asleep, he obviously must not have heard it. It must be the Doctor still up and still fixing the TARDIS. I sat up and crawled out of the covers, slowly trying not to wake him up and walked down the corridor in my jammies. That's when I saw him. He was using a drill I think to fix something. He knew I was there, oh he always knew where I was. He was on the swing with those glasses on, drilling a metal plate onto another, then he turned around and gave me a smile. "Hello Pond" he said, stopping for a minute then returning to working.

"Doctor" I said "I-" but before I could finish my sentence he said - "No"

I was confused as to why he said that but, then I remembered the conversation that he had with Rory that was supposed to be private but I eavesdropped of course.

"Where's Rory?" he asked "It's his turn to talk to you about your women feelings- we agreed"

"Yeah well that's too bad cause he's sleeping isn't he? So you'll have to deal with me twice", he smirked but never said anything and was paying more attention to her (the TARDIS) than me. As he realised that this was something more serious he stopped drilling and took off the glasses to look up to me, as I stared down at him.

"Doctor?" I asked as he walked up the stairs walking closer towards me

"What is it Pond? What's wrong?" he asked me softly

I wanted to have this conversation with him just after the wedding, but I kept getting interrupted and we never had the chance to talk - just us. Rory wanted to have some 'alone time', but I wasn't in the mood.

"I never got the chance to say thanks" I said as I gripped onto the railing

"For what Pond?" he asked giving me that utterly confused look, that I love but seems to irritate me at the same time.

"Coming to my wedding" I said "Well gate crashing my wedding more like"

I wanted to smile when I said that for the first time, but I couldn't when I did say it. I felt as if someone had kicked me in the stomach. It must have hurt him realising that Rory and me were married now, not just his companions who were dating. You could see the pain in his eyes and I wondered if he could see it in mine too.

"The dancing was the best part" he joked trying to cheer himself up a little, I could tell he was putting on a front. He was skilled but yet brilliant at lying to others. Very few could see it, but I was one of that lucky few.

"Yeah...that sure was fun(!)" I laughed, remembering his goofy dance moves - The Giraffe was only the highlight of his.

"Oh shut up Pond you were dancing with me!" he protested

"Oh yeah, well at least I never nearly fell into the cake when trying to impress my friend" I said in a sassy tone

The dancing was the only part I enjoyed that night really since I remembered him. When I danced with him I wanted to dance with him forever. Not Rory. I danced with him because I felt sorry for him, I really did. I wanted to whisper in his ear that night that I was sorry that I didn't love him in return. I did love him but as a friend, Rory was my best friend in the whole universe and no-one could take that away from us - not even the Doctor. But I couldn't tell Rory those things, those secrets, he would only look at me afterwards with hurt in his eyes and in sheer disgust. I hung onto him that night at the reception, tugging onto his tux and crying in his shoulder. Tears he thought were of happiness, but I knew they weren't. They were tears of sadness.

"Anyway you don't need to say thanks Amy, you're my friend and it was only fair that I had to be there" he said

"Come on Doctor we both know that that's not true, I know that you-" I said until I suddenly stopped

I wasn't thinking, it just came out. I've been wanting to tell him for so long how I feel about him. I've wanted to confront him ever since he came back for me 12 years later. I knew he felt something for me when he held my hands and pressed his forehead against mine and promised me everything would be alright. Maybe not feelings of love, but it was of something. He was an obsession of mine when I was younger, but not now. I've gotten to know the real him and discover who the raggedy man really is, that man who travels the universe in a time machine disguised as a police box.

"I what?" he asked as he walked up to me, I froze and wanted to pretend I didn't know what he was talking about, but what was the point? Why cover it up any longer? I might as well tell him. He looked at me, in a way he's never done before. It felt as though he was staring right into my soul, this was it - the moment I told him.

"I know that you have feelings for me Doctor" I said, a moment of silence came after.

He came closer to me and I didn't move. He leaned on the railing beside me and placed his cold hand against my cheek, with a strand of my hair wrapped around his fingers. I had a positive guess in what he was going to say. "Just go to bed Amy" or "I don't know what you are talking about Pond" but what he said next really surprised me.

"Even if I do, how could you possibly know?" he asked, still looking deep into my eyes

I noticed his eyes started to get a little watery, just like mine. He looked to the floor as if in shame. The Doctor just agreed that he loves me. It hurt us to think about it for even a moment, because I am married now and we've got Rory to think about. I took his hand, the moment he felt me touch him made him look up at me. He looked sad and scared at the same time. Scared at the thought of losing me and sad at the fact that he couldn't have me to himself.

"Because I have feelings for you too" I whispered

"Amy you shouldn't be saying that" he snapped out of it and took his hand away from my face to turn his back to me "you're married now to a man who loves you and has known you longer than I have and-"

I wished those words were never true, it was so unfair. I want him so badly, I need him. I just want to be with him.

"No-" I said, cutting him off

"You are married to Rory, fantastic Rory, funny Rory and he's your husband" he hissed at me, and thought he was actually knocking some sense into me.

"I know I am and I don't want him to be" I said "I want someone else"

"Amy-" I stopped him by putting my hand against his mouth so he was looking at me in utter disbelief.

"You've waited long enough too" I said taking my hand from his mouth

"Long enough for what?" he asked. He knew fine well what I was talking about.

"For me..." I said

Before he could stop me, I came closer and wrapped my arms around him, he let me. He didn't push me away or anything like that. Then everything was quiet. I could feel the heat off of his body. Then my lips touched his. Then I pulled away and I could feel his breath upon my skin. Then he kissed me back softly on the lips, that was a surprise. I was a little shocked.

"I love you Pond" he whispered into my ear

We both froze in realisation and he looked at me. I didn't know what to say, the Doctor had just tole me he loves me too. But I knew I loved him too.

"I didn't mean that" he said after a moments silence. Then my hopes flattened. Why would he say that?

"I mean , if you don't want me to" he replied with a smile

I laughed as he rested his forehead against mine as he gave me that mischievous grin of his.

"Well I do want you to" I replied back softly "Because you're in love with me Doctor, and there's not a damn thing you can do to change that"