I didn't want to write this, because I didn't want to transform Ken into a hero just because of today's episode, but my good friend Tracie wrote an excellent fic about Ken (True Strength -- check it out!), so this came about.
Cold Wind of Cruelty
by Rb
Cold wind of cruelty
cuts through me
takes over me
it is me
I want it to be me
that face
in the mirror
is it me?
it can't be
it's too foreign
I want to be
my brother
who is strong
and loved
and dead
my fault
I didn't mean to
but...
it doesn't mean
a thing.
The cold wind of cruelty
took over me
twisted my thoughts
changed me
with my approval
I am the only one that matters...
I am the only one...
I am the only one...
False!
Fake!
Untruth!
A lie...
but true enough
No one loves me
Ichijouji Ken
Everyone will honor me
when I
force them to
Cold wind of cruelty,
grant me my
true strength
my true power
help me become myself
Your eyes
when you look at me
are kind and innocent
and I couldn't
stand it...
You can't
look at me
with such kindness
I don't need it
I don't want it!
Cold wind of cruelty
wash over me
remake me in
your name
to make me strong
All that is
believed
is wrong
I know.
I proved it.
but why do I
sometimes feel
a lack of self
when being
my true self?
Unrestrained hatred
because it's what I
feel for myself
I'll unleash it
upon the world
because...
I don't want
to be
alone
any longer.