Shattered Ambitions
by She's a Star
Disclaimer: To Die For isn't mine.
A/N: Okey dokes...I just saw To Die For a few days ago and loved it, so I decided to write a fanfic. Seeing as the ending pretty much takes away any chance of writing something to take place after the movie, I decided to write a fic about what she was thinking during the movie. Oooh, ahhh, aren't I brilliant? :) Anyway, this takes place during the scene where Larry is talking to her about having them run his father's restaurant together instead of her being on TV. The writing's pretty choppy in this, but you could see her sort of losing her mind during the scene, and, well...d'you think you'd be perfectly coherent while going insane? *hehe* Okay, I'll shut up now...I think this is my longest A/N to date.
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Why the hell did I marry him?
I ask myself this as he speaks...
Why?
Why did I throw my life away?
Husbands complicate things. I don't need complicated.
I need to be on television.
I need to be a star.
Nothing else.
Nothing more.
What is he saying?
How can he be saying this?
A restaurant? Me, throw my career away for a Goddamn restaurant?
STOP IT, LARRY.
My future...he doesn't care, he doesn't care at all.
I need to be on television.
Need to be a star.
LARRY, SHUT UP!
Doesn't care...he doesn't care...
Need to be on television...need to be a star...
Larry...complicating things...shut UP, Larry.
He won't stop talking. Oh God, why won't he stop talking? I won't do this! I won't throw my life away. I don't want a family. I don't want him. I want stardom.
I need it.
Suzanne Maretto...no, Suzanne Stone. Stone. Just Stone. No Maretto...I have to get rid of the Maretto. Just Stone. Suzanne Stone.
How can he even be talking about this? It's not as if he has any ambitions...he's sitting there watching TV and drinking beer, for God's sake! He can't do this! He can't tell me how to live my life.
Just STOP TALKING, Larry! STOP TALKING.
I can't listen to this. I can't be with him. At all. I want him out of my life. If I stay with him, all my ambitions will be shattered. Crushed. Nothing.
STOP TALKING.
He will stop talking.
I'll make him stop talking.
He won't interfere with this.
Oh, he'll stop talking.
He'll stop breathing.
I need him out of my life.
I need him dead.