WISH

disclaimer: don't own anything of CBS. if i did, C/S would've happen.

this seems to be the trend nowadays...

and sue, wish I wasn't afraid...

I have alot to say when we argue, fuss and fight. I'm never short of words when we disagree on something.

I can say what's exactly in my mind. I can get my point across when we're butting heads.

But when when it came to telling you what I feel...I'm at loss of words.

I didn't have the guts. I was afraid to let you know.

I couldn't even say what I feel for you, or how you make me feel every time you're close.

How my heart skips a beat. Or how my palms start to sweat when I see you.

How I longed to be close to you. How I've always wanted to hold you.

How I often times find myself dialing your number but too chicken to press send.

So I go to work every night, waiting for us to argue. It's the only time I can get close to you. The only time we can...communicate.

When get assigned on cases together, those are my happiest moments.

Even if we didn't talk much, just to work side by side with you was a high for me.

I should've said how I felt.

How I've fallen for you.

How much it hurts to love you.

To keep on loving you.

Now I'm not afraid to say it, Catherine.

I'm not afraid to let everyone here know now.

I love you, Catherine. I've always loved you. And will forever love you.

But I wish I wasn't too late to tell you.

I wish I wasn't such a coward.

There are so many things I wish for.

I wish they didn't call you on your day off check out this case with me.

I wish you had you're vest on that night.

I wish it was me who took the bullet instead of you.

I wish I could've said the words as I held you in my arms, as you looked into my eyes.

I wish I could've comforted you more as we waited for help to arrive.

I wish you heard me say 'i love you' as you took your last breath.

I wish you could hear me now.

I wish I didn't have to stand here infront of everyone at your funeral to tell you that I love you.

I'm sorry, Catherine. I wish I was brave.

Most important I wish I didn't wait till it was too late to say I love you.

I miss you, Catherine.

Now I get to say the three words that I've always wanted to say.

I love you.

...and I'm sorry for being too late.

r/r always cool..