Author note: Like it said in the description, this is a one-shot song fic. The song is Supernatural by DAUGHTRY. When my friend first heard this song, she thought of Jacob… and I finally decided to write an FF about it. It takes place in New Moon after Jake finds out he's a werewolf. R&R, I like to know what people think. And if you haven't heard the song, you should listen to it. It's very good.
Disclaimer; I do not own the Twilight series, New Moon, Jake, Bella, or the song Supernatural. I only own the plot.
Lost from the start, I might as well be on the moon
Much colder than I thought, even in the month of June
I knew this would be a shock for Bella. I knew she would be weirded out. I knew she might never want to talk to me ever again. What I didn't know, though, was how she was really going to react to my being a werewolf.
"A werewolf!" she exclaimed. I nodded.
"Yes."
"A wolf!"
"Yes." I nodded again.
"I - I just can't believe you'd do this!"
"Do what?" I had absolutely no idea what she was going on about.
"I mean all of those innocent people – those hikers! They weren't doing anything wrong, Jake. Why did you do that to them?"
"Do what? Bella, I don't-"
"Kill them, Jacob! You don't have to do that!"
"And I don't! Bella, I promise, it's not us." Why wasn't she just listening?
No communication makes you feel so alone
Well, all we need is patience, which I've never really known
"It's…not…you?"
"No, Bella! We don't kill, we save." She stared at me with a dumbstruck look on her face. I grimaced slightly. "Well, we try. It hasn't worked out too well for us." As she continued to stare at me soundlessly, I sighed and leaned back against the wall of my bedroom.
"I'm sorry I haven't called you back, okay? It's just… this has been hard for me. You have no idea."
But now it's too late, it's takin' over me, it feels so supernatural
And I'm pulled the other way; it's more than I can take
And I'm loosin' hold of everything…
And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny
'Cause you feel so supernatural…
She just looked at me. I wish I knew what was going on in that mind of hers, but for the life of me, I couldn't even guess. So, I started talking again.
"It was crazy, Bells. I mean, it still is, but it was worse at first. I was so happy, from being around you. And then one day I just…flipped out. And I was a wolf." I shook my head, looking away from Bella's piercing eyes.
Every step I've taken has led me here, to where you are
And all that I believe in is keepin' me from seein' too far
"I don't like the feeling of… not being in control of my own body." I told her, still looking down. "But the thing is that this is in my blood. I've been this way since birth, I just didn't know it. I thought they were legends, Bella. They're real. They're so, so real." I looked up at her again, finally. "What are you thinking?" I demanded. She was being so quiet, now…
Throwin' out the questions, waiting for the right reply
Lookin' for the answers, tell me will it be tonight?
"I'm thinking… I had no idea, Jake. I'm so sorry."
I shrugged. That wasn't what I was looking for.
"Are you okay with it, Jake? I mean… is it horrible?"
That was better. "I'm sure I make it out to be a lot worse than it is. The worst thing is, like I said, feeling like I have to control. But the best thing… when I'm a wolf, it's just the feeling. I'm so strong, so fast… so different, though." I fell silent again. "Do you hate me now, Bella?" I asked quietly.
But now it's too late, it's takin' over me, it feels so supernatural
And I'm pulled the other way; it's more than I can take
And I'm loosin' hold of everything…
Well, it's more than physical; it's kind of hard to see beyond the glow
And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny
'Cause you feel so supernatural…
"Hate you?" she repeated, her mouth forming an O shape. I nodded soundlessly. "No, Jake, I don't hate you. I could never hate you!" That made me feel better, but not completely.
"I'm a monster now, Bells. I'm not…normal anymore."
Through the atmosphere I'm seein'
Glimpses of the past I'm leavin'
Holding on for life as we collide…
"You're not a monster." She said sincerely. "You could never be a monster."
I paused. "I'll always be this way, Bells. There's no going back."
But now it's too late, it's takin' over me, it feels so supernatural
And I'm pulled the other way; it's more than I can take
And I'm loosin' hold of everything…
Well, it's more than physical; it's kind of hard to see beyond the glow
And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny
'Cause you feel so supernatural…
"It's okay, Jake, really." She smiled a small smile as she looked at me. I sat up, grimacing slightly.
"You won't run away if you see a big wolf in the woods near your house, will you?" I asked, only sort of joking. It worked; she laughed.
"No, but be careful. Charlie has a gun." This time, I laughed. And it was a real laugh, too.
"I will be. Thanks Bells." With that, I wrapped my arms around her in a big hug. I could make it through this change; I knew it. As long as I had her with me.