I Hate You

by Enma Mitsukai

A poem I wrote from Lara's P.O.V. after Alaska's death. How she feels when Pudge just stops talking to her. How she feels when the bump shoulders in the hall.

I hate you,

is what I tell myself.

I hate you.

As you walk by, silent

I hate you,

when your shoulder hits mine.

I hate you.

When all you can say is "I'm sorry", meekly.

I hate you,

for making me mourn alone

I hate you,

for leavig me to suffer.

I hate you,

for giving me hope.

I hate you,

for making me feel this way.

I hate you.

Thats what I tell myself as your eyes meet mine.

I hate you.

Except,

I don't.