This is the first chapter in a 12-parter story, seven of which I have already written, so updates should be fairly frequent (one or two per week). Two-thirds of them are in 1998-99, but some of the later ones range from 2006-17. It focusses on what might have happened if Harry had visited Ginny at christmas in DH. All chapters will be in the form of diary entries, letters, speeches or articles, so will be quite short. Also, while this story is AU, there will be DH spoilers.

Disclaimers: Pretty much everything belongs to Jo Rowling, except Ginny's baby (you'll get a name later!)

13th April 1998

Dear Diary,

What have I done? How can I have been so stupid? All I wanted was to persuade Harry not to go away, not to go off and fulfil his "destiny". Or even just to take me with him.

He came over on Christmas Eve with Ron and Hermione, to give his presents and say they were finally getting somewhere. Later, he came back alone to see me. I didn't really want to do what I did. I just wanted him to stay, and not go off and get himself killed. But when I woke up in the morning, he was gone and my clothes were still scattered across the floor.

He broke my heart that day. And now he's broken it all over again.

My name is Ginevra Molly Weasley. I'm 16 years old and I'm pregnant.

When I told mum, she was shocked. When she asked who the father was, I didn't tell her. Not that it mattered. She guessed anyway. Then she made me promise not to tell anyone that I was carrying Harry's child. Said that the child would be in danger. I screamed back at her that I was more worried about myself than about the thing inside of me. I think she was a bit shocked at that, too. Said I was being hysterical. But, looking back, I said exactly what I felt, what I still feel.

It might be selfish, but it's also human. I care more about not getting hurt than about this kid, or about Harry feeling bad because he got me pregnant. Although he should feel bad. Because of him, I have to live the rest of my life with a child I don't want.

I'm being honest about that, as well. I daren't even suggest an abortion to mum. Even if I said I had a miscarriage and went about it behind her back, she'd still work out what had happened. She's very perceptive when it comes to lying – growing up with Fred and George made sure of that.

I'm determined to find Harry and tell him, because this baby is as much his problem as it is mine. Knowing Harry, he'd probably be delighted. He always looks at the good side of things. His optimism – as ironic as it may be, considering his past – was one of the things I liked about him. After a while though, it simply got annoying. He refused to see the bad sides of me, even when it was staring him in the face. He refused to admit that I was extremely selfish at times. He refused to take me with him when he went gallivanting off on his "quest", and he probably thought that since I agreed it was the right thing to do, I'd be ok with it.

Well, I know it is the right thing to do, but that doesn't mean I'm not angry at him. I'm bitter about it. If he can go off chasing You-Know-Who with Ron and Hermione, then why can't I? I'm cleverer than Ron. I'm more realistic than Hermione. I'm the one Tom Riddle chose to possess when I was in 1st year. Why did Harry think I joined the DA if it wasn't to fight? Why did he think I was so desperate to hear what Sirius said about the Order of the Phoenix a few years ago, if I didn't want to help?

Going off to fight was the right thing to do. But leaving me here, and getting me pregnant; I most definitely do not agree with that. I've always hated being left out. It's not as if Hogwarts is any safer than chasing You-Know-Who, with the Carrows and Snape running it. I get tortured every other day for his location, or just for standing up for him. No idea why I am still standing up for him, though. He even made Lupin come back to Tonks, but he's left me pregnant. Hogwarts is not going to be fun when I go back for the final term.

Well, hope you enjoyed! Tune in next time for a newspaper article on 7th August 1998. Now pay up your reviews please!

Extra notes on story, added for reference for new readers:

Banner for the story: http://img462.imageshack.us/img462/4633/betrayalcopybl1.gif

http:// www. bbc .co .uk /blogs/ni/2007/08/isharrypotterawarcriminal. html Check out that website (you'll have to take the spaces out of the url first). It makes my story seem less surreal; I'm not the only one who thought Harry did something wrong in the books! It might spoil part of the future storyline for readers though, so if you don't want that to happen then wait until you've read chapter 3. All of this information, including the links, is repeated later on, I'm just putting it here for reference.

This next bit is thanks to Unexpected Inspiration, who inspired me to give something worthwhile to my readers by offering oneshot stories as thankyous instead of just a virtual item. However, if I offered oneshots then I'd be worried that I wouldn't finish them, so basically for two or three of my top reviewers I will make a banner for one of their stories (all hail Photoshop!) I'd prefer it to be Harry Potter so that I have a general idea of canon plot & characters, but it doesn't have to be.

The deal is:

1) You must have reviewed at least 6 chapters once I'm done posting, and the majority of reviews must be more than a few words.

2) I will pick two or three reviewers who qualify, either randomly or based on quality of reviews, and PM them. If you're picked, you'll have to tell me which story you want a banner for, what you want the banner to say, a brief summary of the story and you'll have to find the images you want on the banner, of characters and such. I already have pics of the dark mark, Hogwarts crest and several canon characters, but you'll have to check which I have.

3) PM me the links to the pictures and the other information (you'll have to put spaces in the URLs or they'll be blocked), and I'll get the completed banner to you as soon as possible! Please credit me with making it though (I'll put a small bit of text in the corner of each banner to say they were made by me anyway).