Shepard's POV

There aren't really fun things to do after the war. I mean, people always know who you are, and always seem to see you when you don't want to be seen. I wish things would be the same with her, but she never sees me, just what she thinks I am. I lift my beer up to take another drink, but it's empty. I toss the bottle off to the side, I'll get it later.

I know what you're thinking, you're Shepard, you can have anyone you want. It's not true though, because the one woman I want more then life, is about to get on a ship and leave me behind. All because she doesn't know that I love her more then anything.

"You idiot, you should have told her, made her listen. But no, you have to be as selfless as always, and let her go," I say out loud, shaking my head, and running my fingers through my flaming red locks.

"Do you always talk to yourself, skipper? Or is that something you picked up from too many blows to the head," asked a smirking Ashley, as she leans on my wall.

My breath hitches, she's here. She's not supposed to be here, she's ment to be off leading some squad on Spector missions. And yet here she is, in all her beautiful glory, in my room.

"Ash, what are you doing here? I thought your ship left five minutes ago," I ask standing up and walking over to her, the shock clear on my face.

"Yeah well, I got half way to the doc, when I realized I left something that I really needed at your house," she said with a shrug, like it was ok for her to just not get on a ship for something she could always buy again.

"I thought that being on that ship was what you really wanted," I said, my brow lifted high in question.

She just shakes her head, and let's out a bitter chuckle, "you wanna know what I really wanted, skipper?" she asked a hurt look on her face, "I wanted the woman I love to come after me, to tell me that she can't live without me, and how much she loves me. Instead, I got fake smiles and painful goodbyes. You wouldn't even look me in the eyes before you left, skipper," she said, tears slipping down her cheeks, as she shakes with a sob.

I stand there, stunned. Never would I have dreamed that she would love me back, and that by doing what I thought was best, I broke both of our hearts. Go get your girl, stupid! And just like that I'm in front of her, cupping her face, and pulling her face into mine. Our lips meet, and for the first time in years, I feel safe, and loved. She moans into my mouth, and pulls me closer, as I back us into my bed. She lets out a squeek as we fall onto the bed, and she looks down at me, hair falling into her face.

I brush the stray hair behind he ear,"I really can't live without you, you know? And I love you so much it hurts, if I had know I had even a small chance with you, I never would have let you go. Now that I do know however, I'll never let you go, even if you beg and scream," I said, kissing her softly on her lips.

She has a coy smirk on her face that both gets me hot, and makes me nervous," Don't worry Victoria, the only begging and screaming I'll be doing, is when I'm under you... Ma'am," she purrs into my ear.

"We'll just see about that, now drop and give me 20 Williams. Better yet, make it 40, we have a lot of catching up to do," I say, as she straddles me and takes off her shirt.

"Aye Aye, skipper," she says as she leans down and kisses me hard.

Soooo I kinda love this one, even though it's short. I wish people would make more femshep/Ashley stories, so I did it myself. I'm doing oneshots all week, so you give me ideas, I give you stories. Review plzzzzzz

#update# I felt the need to change the whole "your/you're" thing since someone soo kindly pointed it out, thx btw.

-jakelover4ever